I'm Famouse.. Well, Sorta :P

Arab Summit now in Riyadh, everything is saying welcome, we got flags everywhere, we got more security, we got rush-free-streets!! Ahhh, I'm gonna miss it on my way to work on Saturday!

Well, the other day I got an email from someone asking to post my Flickr pix of Riyadh!! Woohooo, turns out I am a good photographer after all :P

Check "ME" out here :D and here, and here !!

~Ciao

Weekends Over Already!! 8(

So, I been watching a lot of One Tree Hill lately, I always thought that was a stupid high school kids kinda show, like Dawson's Creek, and that I hated.. Turns out, things are not as they seem. It is actually a good show. It tells you a lot about family, friends, love, and what does it cost you to go on pursuing dreams. I never thought this show would make me think about life. Analyze a lot. It's a nice show, and I am so wanting season three right now.

My favorite One Tree Hill quote at the moment:
"Maybe you're taking a step back as a basketball player, but you're taking 2 steps forward as a man" -Coach Whitey

Ps. I hate Windows Live! Looks too boxy to like!!

Pss. UMEE; I NEED MY ROOM KEYS!! WALA I HATE THIS NO PRIVACY WHAT SO EVER!!!!!

"They Haunt Her by a Whisper.. A Chill Comes Over Me.."

I grew up to respect all sorts of authority. God, the King, cops, Mom and Dad, grandparents, uncles and aunts, other parents, until a certain age; maids, school teachers, school consular, teachers assistants and the list goes on.

See, when I was little I never question authority, it was correct that they are always right! And I just have to do what they say, take whatever advises they offer, "assuming" they always wanted the best for me. I was a kid, naive, I trusted ANY sort of authority.

Now, as I completed over two years of working in the banking sector in Saudi Arabia. My path crossed a lot* of bad people, in authority places. And being all grown up and getting to know that not everyone will have the best intentions and can't do anything about it, really hurts!

Sometimes, I think, maybe I am what dad says, a spoiled child who can not cope with the pressure of work. And that's why I choose to stay, and not be called a quitter, or I did, for as long as I could, and believe me, two years of putting up with that 10 hrs a day is not an easy job.

Today, I came to what I think I might regret, but knowing that I usually don't regret the stuff I do, gives me strength to go forward. I am stepping up; I am gonna say something about it. And whatever happens later, I got nothing to loose!

May God give me more strength to do this ASAP.

Have a pleasant weekend everyone!

* I usually say millions, as a form of assertion (9ee'3at mobala'3ah), which I came to understand people don't really appreciate. Plus, I don't really know if they use that in the English language.

Hectic..

Well, I'm about to bable on and on, I warned you, this is soooo not gonna look pretty:

• If I had a million dollars, I'd give them all out!
• I need to fix my cell phone already!
• I got a bad case of Tru Calling addiction!!
• I luv the theme song of the OC! I always picture myself driving a convertible by the beach when I hear it!
• Everybody got issues, but knowing your issues, and handling them is a lot better than acting as if you're perfect.
• I'm in luv with that Superman song *dreamy*
• Girls are so much weirder than guys!
• I luv music! In another life time I would so be a musician!!
• I wana kill two Syrians ho got a Saudi national, whom I work with!!
• TV is my best friend, people are too weird for me.
• Blogging is the best therapy ever.
• I want to kill one Syrian guy I know :@
• I can be raciest, but only in stereotyping and making fun.
• I'm so feeling weird today! Don't ask me about this post.
• One of my friends told me to stop hating the Jews and only hate the Zionist, I couldn't =\
• I love kids! Being cute is always a plus :D
• I do love my country! What do you mean it’s not perfect? is anything “perfect” in this world!
• My annoying co-worker quit =D
• I'm actually worried of how hot it was this year in Europe.
• I'm learning to stop my Internet addiction.
• I met a cute Filipino who if I didn't meet at the hospital would so be my friend!
• I need to go to GYM again!
• I believe day after day that self education is more important than formal education.
• I got a crush on this 34 year old doctor who is totally clueless!
• If I didn't hear Simple Plan everyday, I would so think I'm alone..
• If Mad World was not written, I would've wrote it myself!!
• I want to change my job, just because I'm bored of seeing the same faces everyday!
• My annoying co worker quit! (Well, actually she’s been politely kicked out) the important thing is, she left, and people can breath again! I CAN BREATH AGAIN!
• I learned to become carefree.
• Did I mention that my annoying co-worker quit twice?? :P lol
• I should interview a blogger, but I really have no idea who!
• Bloggers meet up turned out to be rather cuter than I thought.
• I’m not sleeping as much as I used to before, this is something I wanted to achieve.
• Food became something disgusting to me for the first time since a long time!
• I miss a lot of old friends, and I am having a lot of memories of them lately..
• I'm so tired, got a constant headache, and quite frankly I don't think my intra laisak operation was a success =(
• I wish that some things that I didn't choose in this life, didn't define me! But it does to me as it does to others!
• I am discovering my friends more and more everyday, and some stuff still surprises me!
• Sam is in Dubai, I miss her already 8(
• I still don't have DSL, but guess what, one of my neighbours got wireless!! :D the signal ain't always strong, but hey, beggers can't be choosers!
• My Beach house saving account might get cashed out, near future looks uncertain 8(
• I leaned to know how to have fun with as little as I got.
• Sali from Star Ac gets on my nerves :S and I do miss Ahmed! After all, he was perfect :P
• I owe dad a huge apology 8(
• I am worried about mama's health, she doesn't look so hot lately! Allah yostor ya rab
• I miss my morning journeys with my sis.
• I will become skinny!

Over! I'm tired!!

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Is life treating you weird these days, do you feel left out when you see a lot of changes, and your friends are leaving.. Do you feel like you're too young to be living like this?? Or is it the other way around and you think you should be acting more mature!! Does everyone really know everyone and the world is small, or is it just that you look for connections to feel less like outsiders.. Why is everything reminding you of him? Why do you still see him everywhere, even hought it's been so long since it's over!!

I am in a place in my life where I look like I figured it all out, but really, I’m more confused than ever..

Fo0f finally meets the bloggers!!

So, this was really interesting, I postponed the meet for like 1 hr later, cuz of my mom -DUH- then, I had to change the time again, cuz mom changed hers -ANOTHER DUH-.

Note to self, I won't include myself in moms plans, even if she asks really nicely and try to get me feel guilty about not spending time with her!

Well, starting off, I have to say I'm bummed Noor and Balgees couldn't make it!! Ash too, but at least I had a one on one time with Ash before :D. Black Orchid and Bissa, too.. Hope all u guys gatherings were fun..

So, everyone who came today, it was my first time meet with!! And although there were the odd quite moments, but they were all cool and down to earth and oh, so nice and cute!! I actually told Farah that I didn't used to like her when I first started blogging, but she's just too nice, you can not not like her!! I wanted to prank the girls and after 3 seconds of me talking she confessed, I wanted to kick her in the balls, but sadly she didn't have any :Pp

Dibaz was really quite doing the cool act :Pp and you know what, that girl can pull off being a Brit so easy!! It turned me on so much, I actually asked her to talk in Arabic!!! Heh, and Taqo is such a shy chica, with a real calm voice that I can barely hear!! And guess what, she can pull off being Saudi!! -hey she even learned "meer" today!!-.. Doomy and Bella are just too cute!! They look like sisters!! Uber, well, I thought it would be awkward meeting you, since I never ever had any encounter with you, but she was reaaally a sweeetyyy, she came in such a short time, and she had a hot hair cut ;)

Summing up, I started the day with buying a heeled shoe, and ended it with buying a flat one -Doomy and Bella actually caught me there :$- so that gives you an idea that my day was really GOOD :D

Oh, yeah! And I saw Asala Nasry shopping for make up in Debenhams!! And guess what?? I AM SO FREGGIN' TALL NEXT TO HER!!! :D

Another note to self, check why BJ said she was coming?!

What is There to Have Fun "out" in Riyadh?

So, weekend, I had my reunion thingy today, mama had her own plans with her peeps. Dad was in bar, and my bros, well u know.. Surprisingly, my sisters had no where to go, and nothing to do!! I felt bad for them!! They really had nothing!!! What did they do, called STC and used ge6af(some kind of points STC gives out when using cell phones), more like abused ge6af, they called all the people they knew to chat!! Lol.

Oh yeah, I had a looot of fun at the reunion, I was amazed by what happened to my friends, I'm really happy for them! We agreed to do this more often =)

Life Goes On..

Once upon a time, there was a little girl. Living with her pink sweet looking family; mom, dad and sister and bro.. Her smile never left her, she loved to play, hey joy was when daddy gave her some time of his day. Daddy didn't do that a lot. After all he's all grown up, he was asthmatic, and she didn't want to hurt her daddy. He would play with others kids though, something she never understood. Now she grown, she still didn't get "Why wouldn't he play a lil with me."

As she got older, she saw him preach her, constantly telling her what's right and wrong.

Choosing her friends, her schooling, judging her hobbies, and her life!! He grew up to hate her, or so she felt, as he always thought the worst of her. Mommy was never there, she had her own place and own circle of life. She wouldn't care less of what happens inside her house, as long as it looked shiny and lunch was presented on time.

The little girl was no longer little, she got to learn a lot from life, although everyone stereotyped her as the spoiled one, everything she learnt was the hard way. She's all grown up now, should be all independent. But found herself in a place where she didn't feel she belonged, she always had a lot to accomplish in her mind, she always saw herself going places, she wanted a lot in life which she slowly but fiercely, realised she can't have.

Now, a young woman, she thinks, why bother dream, plan, or care, when my destiny is always under someone's hands. Whenever she wanted something, the irony of her reality hits her, telling her, although it is your life, but this is not your decision to make!

She still keeps walking, wipes her tears, and puts on her usual smile. Trying to go on.. Not really wanting to, but for the sake of her faith, for the love she has for her family, not knowing what she wants in life anymore, she still.. Goes on.

I'm Back, I'm Hyper :P and I am Better!!

Well.. I am back, Bahrain was.. Hmmm, well you know Bahrain, a couple of malls, sheesha cafes, movies, booze :P nothing special.. As always, just another family vacation~!

I seen a guy shitting by the highway, my baby bro and baby sis Ipods were stolen! I was moving around like a Vegas dealer, a deck of cards and an envelope filled with 100 Riyal bills totalling 5 grand!! WHAT?? You know my wallet and credit cards were stolen 3 weeks ago 8(

I was thinking on the long way back, what's the deal with girl friends?? Cant there be a real girl friend anymore?? Was there a9lan!! Why do people have to stereotype girls to be back stabbers and two faced liars.. Is it true cuz we ALL are!!! That's too bad, I hope it ain't true.. But I can see where all that is coming from more and more everyday!!

Still trying to get another job, I hate myself for being too picky and then,realising I need to move already!! Even if I didn't like the job, or the benefits were not as flashy as it should be.. I hate this feeling I'm getting lately, wanting to drop work, go back to uni.. live off mom and dad.. And just be a kid again 8(

Guess my glass looks half empty today..

Happy Valentines..

I am sick..

Home..

Hating my self!

I can't talk properly..

I can't walk properly..

And I cannot even BREATH properly!!

I'm sending the driver now to get my medications

(WHAT? I didn't think I was really sick till I woke up today!!)

What a happy valentines this turned out to be!

Pray for my health people, as I feel like I'm dying 8(

Weekends Weekends..

So.. My Ipod mini is officially full now, I need to take some real thought in selecting the music I'll keep and the music I'll delete.. I am not ready to buy a new Ipod yet..

Yesterday I did not go out anywhere.. I was in pain, and someone was supposed to be there for me!! You always say I am your best friend, but you sure ain't mine..

So, I been in my lovely room for what seems like forever this weekend, as my lovely family made me casa into everyones su casa, I couldn't be free in my own home. I am usually an outgoing person and can mingle with anyone, but yesterday, I didn't want to see anyone, and our lovely guest slept over. (I don't know when exactly, the house was up all night).

My plan was to go to work this weekend too, but I didn't wake up! 8( I'll just go on Sat a tad early so I finish up what I got to finish.. Nothing productive ever happens on Sat, everyone else is off! I am proposing a new weekend for our department in the weekly meet. Hope it all goes well.

~Enjoy ur weekends everyone ;)

My Name is Fo0f and I am Suspicious-ic.

OK. This is gonna be weird, -For me, not for you!!- Being a suspicious person, I always thought I had a good thing going on for me here. As it is never bad to be suspicious, it makes you think about the situation, and analyze it and always gets you a logical explanation given the variables you have. Or at least that's what I thought for my last 22 years.

My suspicious behavior always got me to solve a lot of problems and always made me think wisely before I con somebody - as a prank of course!! Or parents, dauh!- I always enjoyed it. I don't say it was always right but I don't go on accusing people and that's what kept me on the safe side always, you are a liar, and I know, but you don't know I know. And we can both co exist, me knowing how your mind thinks, and you thinking I'm too dumb to get what your trying to pull.

So the other day at work, I been getting the weirdest calls, someone's been calling me and hanging up, and I'm used to that from my annoying co worker, she wants to know if I'm there, or she just wants to annoy me. The stupid thing is, I can hear her punching my numbers, and hanging up!! We're two cubicles away for God's sake!!!

So this was going on for a while, then my cell phone, missed calls from a “sawa” number. I was like OK. What does she want to do now =\ and I was in the middle of a discussion with a colleague and it did annoy me!! So I told him, please call this number!! I wanted to bust her and make her feel stupid, so he called. And it was the breakfast I ordered for the department, the guy bringing it was lost!!! TALK ABOUT A FLUSHED FO0F FACE!!

Good thing I didn't tell my colleague about my so-bright-conclusion!!! I would've been so embarrassed!!

~Fo0f, over and out.

I'm Happy :D well, at least before Umee called!! Jk ;)

I CAN BLOG!!!
At last a google account!! Damn, these guys are getting richer everyday!!

Today started out like any other winter in Riyadh working day. Hardly can wake up, brush my teeth with my eyes shut and try to leave home early to reach work on time.

But today, I have heard this "AMAZING" news.. and I'm high all day :D it's impossible to think this could still make me happy but it did, what kills me is, it's confidential!! I wanted to put on a Circular!! Almohm I'm HAPPY :D

Oh, yeah, and I got a brand new cubicle!! And planning to get a sound system for my room (maybe these too, got something to do with my happiness, just maybe)

So anyways, as "certain" ex-bloggers - yeah, you know urselves =P- enjoy facebook too much.. I look back and think.. What would I miss if I left too..

I remember first blog I had, on multiply.. Then Alyana told me about her blog, and then Nora.. and I was like wow, that has a million more options, and I joined, I didn't tell either of them, cuz I wanted to blog for me.. But they found out cuz the Saudi blogger community was too small then, I miss their blogs, I miss lotsa people who used to blog..

Only 3 of my friends know about my blog. I don't really want people to know.. And sometimes I think more and more people know.. But did that make me change my mind about having a blog.. I always liked to write down my feelings, papers, sms, email.. I used to -and might still do- have a problem in speaking about my feelings.. When I'm hurt, I cry. When I feel misjudged, I cry.. When I'm accused of something I didn't do, I cry!!!! I can be my own ball of emotional trauma!! And I luv my own time alone, my Fo0f-time..

Sometimes you call, I hear the phone, I'm not really busy with anything, but I choose not to pick up, sometimes I agree to a meet and cancel and make up a reason, just because I felt chocked.. Wanted some air, needed my own time. Or needed a break from you.. I never judged people's behaviour which I don't approve of.. So I think they should cut me some slack and let me be, without being judged, or blamed..

So anyways, this writing thing have always helped me through out the years, it's always been a kind of therapy that I have made out to solve my own problems.. I am in love with it now, I can't leave it, I owe it too much.. And I don't thin I can live with out it, I don't want to be a great writer.. I just want to "be".. And write.. And continue to write.. For me =)

Week-ends not so Exciting Anymore?

I just can't get over the fact that my in tray has too much paper, I got a million pending cases that need follow ups and I didn't do my quarterly report yet!! What's wrong with me!! I really can't get over leaving work like this.. I seriously want to go to work tomorrow!!

~LOL, so I hear facebook is the new blogspot ;)

Fo0f Kids .. :3

It's a girls year!! All the babies are cuttttee girls this year!!

My friend is about to have a baby, when she knew it was a girl, she started panicking to think of a name.. I didn't know it was this hard, till I tried to help her.. I never even thought of what would I name my own kids!! I want my kids to have cute names.. But when a cute name is named everyone steals it!! Like Rand!! Everyone's a Rand now!! Or Leen/Layan!! And I so wanted a baby Talal but my cousin names her baby Talal so now I need new ideas!!

I was at Rima'z blog -where I can not comment- and read this recent post also about having babies and naming them.. I liked Jana... But obviously it's gonna be a lot, and I don't want to steal it from Rima =P

So.. As you can see, I been thinking of my own babies names.. I got some prospective now.. But guess what, I am afraid to share them with people now, so they won't use em before I do!!

Call me selfish.. It's a tough world! And do share if you got cute names in mind :P