Airhead Anyone?

I been very very very busy lately. and it's not kuz i should be busy, or that i have actually a lot to do. but it's more me trying to dodge thinking about some stuff that are not very pleasant to me, which i know my brains drooling around at the mo'.

so been to parties this last couple of weeks. danced like crazy there and home in front of concerts on video! been shopping for junk i never thought i needed, and for other stuff i never thought I'd go out to shop for.

called and got to know EVERY make up artist and hair stylist in Riyadh! photographers, dress makers! designers! cater service! flower shop!! and i heard all the Arabic songs i wana hear for a year!!!

oh, yeah, did i mention that i also broke a nail?

Why Would You Think I'd Change?

It's interesting how people think ur gonna change drastically just because ur moving to a new city, ur starting a new job, u've met other people or.. You're getting married.

i'll still go to the same place i work at everyday, i'll complain about the same systems and long work hrs. i'll curse the transportation system, i'll have my daily junk food lunches and wonder when will i start eating healthy. i'll still listen to my Ipod, go all the way to the supermarket just to get olives and cheese.. i'll still enjoy drinking Lipton's Ice Tea.. Getting together doing random stuff with my friends on Wednesdays, sleeping on the couch in front of TV watching my fav sitcoms..

why would mom ask me to go with her to her med aged cousins weekly gathering!! Oh yeah, so it's 3eed! They still need to get something in common with me for me to hang around them..

Fo0f's Having Second Thoughts

you were nice, looked okay. had a good future, a nice view of where u gonna be. came from a good family, and had great sisters.

i met with u and u were.. sweet for a first meet.

i liked, and i thought, well Fo0f, it's time. there's no reason to say no. so i said yes :)

now, while things show more and more clearer, i realised. all the things i thought i didnt like are showing, i don't think they are enough reasons, but still. i cant help it. i can't sleep at night. and when i do sleep, i get nightmares! i wake up frightened! is that right?

i am so torn in the middle, between what people think, and wht he thinks, and wht my parents think.. yeah, no one even asked what i thought. i know one thing. Mr T is so happy i'm leaving.

what's happening. i dont know. what will happen? it wont be long and i'll know everything.