Deja Vous

whoa.. *wiping forehead*

you all know what deja vous means.. you all been through it. what if i told you that my whole day of today was a series of deja vous!!!!

i was thinking of quitting. having a break for a couple of months, then hitting the working scene after i am done with my matters and i am more relaxed. and to TARGET the places where i wana work.

and for all of you who don't work, this is a very tough decision to make! and not for another better job, not for school, no.. to stay at home! -i'm doing my schooling by distance but that doesn't count-

so yeah, i couldn't do it! i chickened out! i need a push. and i have only my hubby to relay on, and i'm starting to think maybe it's too early to relay on him..

Fo0f, over and out. wow, i'm seriously back to blogging!

Time's Running Up

Wow, I'm almost 23 and I am OH SO BORED, I look at older people in my family and work and wonder how could they put up with life, it's boring. Or is it just me? I wonder.

So, I been trying out new habits, in which might not be right, but excuse my boredom, I need to be entertained :P Here are the major ones;

• Started eating the food I hated, and stopped eating the food I liked.
• Getting in touch with REALLY OLD friends!
• Watching old Arabic cartoons on my DVD player (3adnan wa lina and robbin hood)
• Reading the blogs I hated to read.
• Plan a costume party!
• Play more on my PSP. I need more games!
• If I liked something, go for it right away! (Careful, this might result financial problems)
• I'm looking for friends in Thailand, yeah, just for the sake of it!
• Really listen when my sisters talk to me about school or co-op.
• Facebook is for fun only. The bikini shots have to go down!
• Imagin I'm flying off to Hong Kong & checking out hot spots and make reservations =D
• Buy a car! Thank God for lease programs ;)
• Cutting off TV time. And less internet hours!

Regarding blog world, I'm interviewing 3zayez as soon as I get the time and energy. Need some help from Ash to do some polls about the blogs for the bloggers group. And Taqwa to write the questions~!

"They Haunt Her by a Whisper.. A Chill Comes Over Me.."

I grew up to respect all sorts of authority. God, the King, cops, Mom and Dad, grandparents, uncles and aunts, other parents, until a certain age; maids, school teachers, school consular, teachers assistants and the list goes on.

See, when I was little I never question authority, it was correct that they are always right! And I just have to do what they say, take whatever advises they offer, "assuming" they always wanted the best for me. I was a kid, naive, I trusted ANY sort of authority.

Now, as I completed over two years of working in the banking sector in Saudi Arabia. My path crossed a lot* of bad people, in authority places. And being all grown up and getting to know that not everyone will have the best intentions and can't do anything about it, really hurts!

Sometimes, I think, maybe I am what dad says, a spoiled child who can not cope with the pressure of work. And that's why I choose to stay, and not be called a quitter, or I did, for as long as I could, and believe me, two years of putting up with that 10 hrs a day is not an easy job.

Today, I came to what I think I might regret, but knowing that I usually don't regret the stuff I do, gives me strength to go forward. I am stepping up; I am gonna say something about it. And whatever happens later, I got nothing to loose!

May God give me more strength to do this ASAP.

Have a pleasant weekend everyone!

* I usually say millions, as a form of assertion (9ee'3at mobala'3ah), which I came to understand people don't really appreciate. Plus, I don't really know if they use that in the English language.