Let the Laziness Begin!

yeah, i'm gonna stay at home :D i deserve it after all this hard work.
my mind is set.
i just hope i dont miss my job,

Deja Vous

whoa.. *wiping forehead*

you all know what deja vous means.. you all been through it. what if i told you that my whole day of today was a series of deja vous!!!!

i was thinking of quitting. having a break for a couple of months, then hitting the working scene after i am done with my matters and i am more relaxed. and to TARGET the places where i wana work.

and for all of you who don't work, this is a very tough decision to make! and not for another better job, not for school, no.. to stay at home! -i'm doing my schooling by distance but that doesn't count-

so yeah, i couldn't do it! i chickened out! i need a push. and i have only my hubby to relay on, and i'm starting to think maybe it's too early to relay on him..

Fo0f, over and out. wow, i'm seriously back to blogging!

Off!

i'm fed up, being at work and not doing anything sucks!!
i made my mind, i'm bringing my PSP tomorrow!!

10 things I realized lately.

1. Worrying or thinking about something that already happened is just a waste of time.
2. I CAN do anything.
3. I can not just sit and do NOTHING! (current status @ work)*
4. I'm a techy geek whether I like it or not! I actually miss my glasses.
5. I can NOT live properly without working out.
6. My face tells you everything about me! =\
7. I NEED a car!
8. I am very loyal to my bank (I am NOT being sarcastic =\)
9. I CAN cope with my life with less sleep.
10. I miss you :$
    
    *I'm actually writing this from work!!
    
    ~Over and out.
    
    Ps. To taqo, I am in the process of getting a new layout 8)~

Hmmm, I kinda did miss it!

Well. I am back to being the techy chica..

• I am reading VBA books to refresh my mind.
• Fixing my aunts printer and making her some high resolution picture files.
• Adding additional RAM to my Laptop.
• Fixing my bros MP3 player (Heck, I remembered, where the heck is my Ipod!!)
• DLing software for my new cell phone (whaaat, this also counts!)
• Searching for a new layout. (HELP!)

So, I am working with this really nice guy, who is a very Shiite. He's from Gatif, got a million bros and sisters...etc. But all in all, he's a great dude! Smart, well educated and a team player, I can't get over why ppl assume we don't get along.

I remembered when I was in my old Syrian mob department, I was supposed to check some people to work with us, and I got this CV for this young fellow who's a fresh grad. I showed my supervisor, he looked at the address, read "Gatif" out loud and said, "ma nbeeh!!" -we don't want him- I was like, that's not a reason! He laughed and left me speechless!

I might "hate" Syrians, Egypt, Cults, Clumsy people! But I would never base something like that on not choosing a guy for a job =\

Shit, I feel like I can't write well anymore!
I desperately need to be hitting the GYM!

"They Haunt Her by a Whisper.. A Chill Comes Over Me.."

I grew up to respect all sorts of authority. God, the King, cops, Mom and Dad, grandparents, uncles and aunts, other parents, until a certain age; maids, school teachers, school consular, teachers assistants and the list goes on.

See, when I was little I never question authority, it was correct that they are always right! And I just have to do what they say, take whatever advises they offer, "assuming" they always wanted the best for me. I was a kid, naive, I trusted ANY sort of authority.

Now, as I completed over two years of working in the banking sector in Saudi Arabia. My path crossed a lot* of bad people, in authority places. And being all grown up and getting to know that not everyone will have the best intentions and can't do anything about it, really hurts!

Sometimes, I think, maybe I am what dad says, a spoiled child who can not cope with the pressure of work. And that's why I choose to stay, and not be called a quitter, or I did, for as long as I could, and believe me, two years of putting up with that 10 hrs a day is not an easy job.

Today, I came to what I think I might regret, but knowing that I usually don't regret the stuff I do, gives me strength to go forward. I am stepping up; I am gonna say something about it. And whatever happens later, I got nothing to loose!

May God give me more strength to do this ASAP.

Have a pleasant weekend everyone!

* I usually say millions, as a form of assertion (9ee'3at mobala'3ah), which I came to understand people don't really appreciate. Plus, I don't really know if they use that in the English language.

Hectic..

Well, I'm about to bable on and on, I warned you, this is soooo not gonna look pretty:

• If I had a million dollars, I'd give them all out!
• I need to fix my cell phone already!
• I got a bad case of Tru Calling addiction!!
• I luv the theme song of the OC! I always picture myself driving a convertible by the beach when I hear it!
• Everybody got issues, but knowing your issues, and handling them is a lot better than acting as if you're perfect.
• I'm in luv with that Superman song *dreamy*
• Girls are so much weirder than guys!
• I luv music! In another life time I would so be a musician!!
• I wana kill two Syrians ho got a Saudi national, whom I work with!!
• TV is my best friend, people are too weird for me.
• Blogging is the best therapy ever.
• I want to kill one Syrian guy I know :@
• I can be raciest, but only in stereotyping and making fun.
• I'm so feeling weird today! Don't ask me about this post.
• One of my friends told me to stop hating the Jews and only hate the Zionist, I couldn't =\
• I love kids! Being cute is always a plus :D
• I do love my country! What do you mean it’s not perfect? is anything “perfect” in this world!
• My annoying co-worker quit =D
• I'm actually worried of how hot it was this year in Europe.
• I'm learning to stop my Internet addiction.
• I met a cute Filipino who if I didn't meet at the hospital would so be my friend!
• I need to go to GYM again!
• I believe day after day that self education is more important than formal education.
• I got a crush on this 34 year old doctor who is totally clueless!
• If I didn't hear Simple Plan everyday, I would so think I'm alone..
• If Mad World was not written, I would've wrote it myself!!
• I want to change my job, just because I'm bored of seeing the same faces everyday!
• My annoying co worker quit! (Well, actually she’s been politely kicked out) the important thing is, she left, and people can breath again! I CAN BREATH AGAIN!
• I learned to become carefree.
• Did I mention that my annoying co-worker quit twice?? :P lol
• I should interview a blogger, but I really have no idea who!
• Bloggers meet up turned out to be rather cuter than I thought.
• I’m not sleeping as much as I used to before, this is something I wanted to achieve.
• Food became something disgusting to me for the first time since a long time!
• I miss a lot of old friends, and I am having a lot of memories of them lately..
• I'm so tired, got a constant headache, and quite frankly I don't think my intra laisak operation was a success =(
• I wish that some things that I didn't choose in this life, didn't define me! But it does to me as it does to others!
• I am discovering my friends more and more everyday, and some stuff still surprises me!
• Sam is in Dubai, I miss her already 8(
• I still don't have DSL, but guess what, one of my neighbours got wireless!! :D the signal ain't always strong, but hey, beggers can't be choosers!
• My Beach house saving account might get cashed out, near future looks uncertain 8(
• I leaned to know how to have fun with as little as I got.
• Sali from Star Ac gets on my nerves :S and I do miss Ahmed! After all, he was perfect :P
• I owe dad a huge apology 8(
• I am worried about mama's health, she doesn't look so hot lately! Allah yostor ya rab
• I miss my morning journeys with my sis.
• I will become skinny!

Over! I'm tired!!

My Name is Fo0f and I am Suspicious-ic.

OK. This is gonna be weird, -For me, not for you!!- Being a suspicious person, I always thought I had a good thing going on for me here. As it is never bad to be suspicious, it makes you think about the situation, and analyze it and always gets you a logical explanation given the variables you have. Or at least that's what I thought for my last 22 years.

My suspicious behavior always got me to solve a lot of problems and always made me think wisely before I con somebody - as a prank of course!! Or parents, dauh!- I always enjoyed it. I don't say it was always right but I don't go on accusing people and that's what kept me on the safe side always, you are a liar, and I know, but you don't know I know. And we can both co exist, me knowing how your mind thinks, and you thinking I'm too dumb to get what your trying to pull.

So the other day at work, I been getting the weirdest calls, someone's been calling me and hanging up, and I'm used to that from my annoying co worker, she wants to know if I'm there, or she just wants to annoy me. The stupid thing is, I can hear her punching my numbers, and hanging up!! We're two cubicles away for God's sake!!!

So this was going on for a while, then my cell phone, missed calls from a “sawa” number. I was like OK. What does she want to do now =\ and I was in the middle of a discussion with a colleague and it did annoy me!! So I told him, please call this number!! I wanted to bust her and make her feel stupid, so he called. And it was the breakfast I ordered for the department, the guy bringing it was lost!!! TALK ABOUT A FLUSHED FO0F FACE!!

Good thing I didn't tell my colleague about my so-bright-conclusion!!! I would've been so embarrassed!!

~Fo0f, over and out.