BEWARE! Bloggin is Not Safe! (7asbe Allah Wa Ne3m Alwakeel)

I have left the blogsphere for what seemed like a very long time since I was a usual blogger. The reasons were a mixture of work, being busy in life and that the Saudi blogging scene started to seem to me boring and worse and worse while time goes. It was noticed by the kind of posts and the kind of comments. Harassments on blogs and bloggers were just stupid.

I wished I had my identity anonymous, it is not.. But as time go by.. People started knowing me. And bloggers met up and it's not as anonymous as people think, even when were using screen names.

When i came back however -KUZ I LIKE TO WRITE AND I DONT VENT TO MY FRIENDS!- i had problems with getting a good layout.. still looking for one btw. But, i was introduced to a new set of ARABIC BLOGS and no, not the boring old ones, real nice blogs that i got addicted on reading! One was Mashe 9a7 and another was Fouad al Farhan and a couple more

As some of you might know by now, Fouad is now in jail for blogging. IN JAIL!! Jailed for having a point of view, jailed for gathring a bunch of banners for other bloggers to use, for some people who were jailed and he thought were innocent!!!

I pray for him to go back to his family safe and sound, I pray for all the terrorists to bomb themselves in their hideouts and let us live in peace and I pray for the government to give us a lil bit of freedom to speak our opinions! Even if it's just on the internet.

All of This reminds of when Farah (farahs sawaleef blog owner) deleted her blog. People told me that she was actually threatened the same way as Fouad was. And that they got to her father. I never talked to her about this before, kuz I thought it was just a myth. Now I am not so sure!

Click on the pic for the official Free Foaud page.


More on this topic:

• Fouad’s Letter by Saudi Jeans
• Saudi Blogger Fuad Al-Farhan Arrested Again by Rasheed
• Saudi Blogger Fouad Al Farhan Arrested in Jeddah (Global Voices Article)
• Saudi blogger Fouad Al-Farhan arrested by Mahmood

Say Hello to the New Mrs ;)

So.. i'm a woman now? hehe, does that even make sense.. does getting married mean you've converted from (girl) to (woman)? so if u've never wed and ur 40 years of age, ur still a (girl)?? mmm.. interesting how living in saudi arabia effect on my way of thinking =P

okay, i cant believe i'm actually thinking this, but i want a boy.. i want to have 3 boys, and that's it. when i reach 45 years old. i get pregnant again and get a lil girl the we all spoil rotten! yeah i know it's so weird how one day i'm thinking i dont wana have kids, next day thinking about names !!there's a story behind everything with me.. so here goes;

i met this extraordinary woman in thailand this year, she's moms age. but she's so lively.. she works in the same teaching sector as mama. she has a successful engineer husband (ahem, dad!), and BAM they graduated from the same state uni that my parents graduated from, just a couple of years later!! how bazar is that!

this woman was so intelligent and had her own thoughts.. it was surprising to me as i always thought these women who were involved in the teaching sector were close-minded women who dont think for themselves.. (mom and her friends effected that way of thinking sadly) i met the woman in a shopping mall in bangkok.. we shopped together!!!! mom never told me this would look nice on me, what to get and what not! sheesh!! i think i got issues!! hehe..

we then met with her hubby, who was nice enough to walk around the mall with us and sit in each shop waiting for us to finish :P and her 3 boys (yeah u got me, i want to be something like her!) she was successful and interesting and fun and had her on head with her own thoughts!!!

my mom is pretty open minded and intellectual and well touted. but once she hit home, she started to become a copy of every middle aged woman in saudi.. she started copying wht her peers do and think. and i'm kinda embarrassed i'm saying this. i actually told her the other day, mom please when with anyone, talk about ur views on the community.. ur dreams, ur past and future.. ur thoughts on life.. dont just sit around talking about wht ur bros and sisters do in life (jobs), or asking question like who are u married to, who's ur uncles and how many kids do u have!! makes u sound STUPID when it's all u can think of in a convo..

can u tell i'm mad at her? it seems like i always am!

when my friends say their moms their friend, i used to wonder whats wrong with me!!! now i know it's whats wrong with momzy.. no wonder i got issues, *rolling eyes*

Happy happy :D

i got accepted!! total euphoria!!
yeah well, i kinda am happy not just because i got accepted. because i did after i throw the acceptence in thier faces and thinkin i was better than that.. then, realising i should take that offer that i always wanted :S but after the deadline passed!!

i didnt know my uncles in jeddah would be helpful. but i gotta admit, i luv uncle 9agar and wont forget his help! alsoo euphoria ;) luv u girl =X

to be totally honest; i am also happy kuz i'm watchin my fav show, numb3rs :D

So.. The foof is back.. (we know already, get over it! :S) Random post

i cant believe i left this place, this was my safe spot! My so called haven. so yeah, i'm so dumping facebook *hmmmf*

i was really bummed today when i discovered i missed juventus second game back in seria A. Our ART subscription sucks! i heard Jazirah sport cost about 30 riyals a year? i bet Riyad has it *resentful of the idea of tv we need to pay for!*

so yeah, the game had 3 penalties against juve which is soo unheard of, and yet, they won! i cant believe how anyone can downgrade the best soccer team in the world. YES I SAID IN THE WORLD.

so nxt game is on 23rd. by that time i'd probably already forgot :P and i might miss it (yeah, right). i'm so into the italian league again. i so hope this aint the last season for del piero and buffon.. that might actually hurt me :(

today i'm being challenged on this dawre yabani game on PS2 which i always resented. you think i'm gonna win?? i'm playing Brazil that tells you i'm desperate to win, i usually choose Italia or saudia ;)

my new layout is in Itachi's hands, but since his new layout aint that kewl =P i guess this will do for a looong time.. dont get me wrong, i'm still searching for a "phunky" one ;)

you cant believe how much i'm enjoying browsing new blogs.. it's like i just started bloggin :D

oh yeah, we got DSL at last!! Now that's great news or wht ;) please do tell if u know of a website which broadcasts italian league football games.

Whoever has a decent speed internet, check these out, REAL funny:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cbh4G1OyCJo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CyV3e7au6Fc

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hdlvikoNCSs

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=icWhfeVojXk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fIuwrscaP4k

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SAn-LqduGvc

Swer tagged the Fo0f,

So, this sweet blogger tagged me while i was in my coding dilemma.. i miss these tags.. so thanks Swer ;)

Eight facts about me that no one knows:

1- i got problems sleeping for a long time now, the only 2 solutions i came up with are, to have a full active day so i come back home so tired i go right to sleep, or to watch any kind of series on my laptop till literally fall sleep :P

2- i luv wearing flats, the only thing that makes me buy and wear heels is that i am short, and i look a LOT younger than my real age.

3- i luv my family so much, i had a huge fight with my middle bro, and 2 hrs later we were out shopping, he called me yesterday telling me i should visit him and i was so touched my eyes teared up.

4- i always thought i was getting married this year. (although i was not engaged nor involved with no one). i still believe i will.

5- people always underestimate my power, they think i'm sweet cute lil noufa, little that they know; sweet lil noufa can stand up for herself ;)

6- i miss seeing dad. vacation was heaven, i used to see him everyday. i honestly wish we can work together, maybe i should work on that!

7- i am a freakishly fast typer, it actually scares people in my office.

8- i started out blogging to get a lot of stuff out of my head, and instead i found out a lot about myself through it

Tagging EIGHT ppl! wow, let me remember old bloggers :P Rimyoleta, Fishy, Moods, Itachi, missy, Euphoria, lipstickwahabi, taqwa.. and yeah i know most of them are already tagged :P whtever.

Bleh.. This will do for the mo' -i know it sounded stupid :P

So yeah, i got a LOT of good ayouts, but no comment code, and adding it screwed up the whole code, so.. Itachi was kind enough to help but .. madre.. he got busy :P

so this will do.. this week was great.. bring more details soon.

my friends today totally bailed on me they went out without me and they told me theyre busy later, so later, they were still out, and i got no ride now :S the bastards :P i'll kick thier asses tomorrow at work!

soooo, wht did i miss?

Fo0f~

I'm back! big time!!

so, i missed my blog. period!

i'm gonna work on it again, new layout, new chatty box, new bloggers links!! i seen lotsa new bloggers who got it goin on.. so yeah, i'm back!

:D

Bleh.

Bleh..

This blog has come and gone, went on and off, seen happy times and not so happy times, met through ppl and got to know ppl, whom both i hate, luv, adore, respect and resent.. i NEVER thought blogging would have had an effect on my life. After all. I started blogging as a way to vent :)

As i come back today, after a long breakup with my blog, to complain, i realise i owed my blog too much. i wouldnt have become who i am without it. being good or bad, is not up to me to decided, but i know this much, i like myself much much more now. i've really learned.

so yesterday was crappy, yeah thats all i'm gonna say for the time being. blogging aint safe anymore, and ya'll know wht i mean..

Again, bleh.

Hmmm, I kinda did miss it!

Well. I am back to being the techy chica..

• I am reading VBA books to refresh my mind.
• Fixing my aunts printer and making her some high resolution picture files.
• Adding additional RAM to my Laptop.
• Fixing my bros MP3 player (Heck, I remembered, where the heck is my Ipod!!)
• DLing software for my new cell phone (whaaat, this also counts!)
• Searching for a new layout. (HELP!)

So, I am working with this really nice guy, who is a very Shiite. He's from Gatif, got a million bros and sisters...etc. But all in all, he's a great dude! Smart, well educated and a team player, I can't get over why ppl assume we don't get along.

I remembered when I was in my old Syrian mob department, I was supposed to check some people to work with us, and I got this CV for this young fellow who's a fresh grad. I showed my supervisor, he looked at the address, read "Gatif" out loud and said, "ma nbeeh!!" -we don't want him- I was like, that's not a reason! He laughed and left me speechless!

I might "hate" Syrians, Egypt, Cults, Clumsy people! But I would never base something like that on not choosing a guy for a job =\

Shit, I feel like I can't write well anymore!
I desperately need to be hitting the GYM!

Time's Running Up

Wow, I'm almost 23 and I am OH SO BORED, I look at older people in my family and work and wonder how could they put up with life, it's boring. Or is it just me? I wonder.

So, I been trying out new habits, in which might not be right, but excuse my boredom, I need to be entertained :P Here are the major ones;

• Started eating the food I hated, and stopped eating the food I liked.
• Getting in touch with REALLY OLD friends!
• Watching old Arabic cartoons on my DVD player (3adnan wa lina and robbin hood)
• Reading the blogs I hated to read.
• Plan a costume party!
• Play more on my PSP. I need more games!
• If I liked something, go for it right away! (Careful, this might result financial problems)
• I'm looking for friends in Thailand, yeah, just for the sake of it!
• Really listen when my sisters talk to me about school or co-op.
• Facebook is for fun only. The bikini shots have to go down!
• Imagin I'm flying off to Hong Kong & checking out hot spots and make reservations =D
• Buy a car! Thank God for lease programs ;)
• Cutting off TV time. And less internet hours!

Regarding blog world, I'm interviewing 3zayez as soon as I get the time and energy. Need some help from Ash to do some polls about the blogs for the bloggers group. And Taqwa to write the questions~!

Blah

i'm bored.

Weekends Over Already!! 8(

So, I been watching a lot of One Tree Hill lately, I always thought that was a stupid high school kids kinda show, like Dawson's Creek, and that I hated.. Turns out, things are not as they seem. It is actually a good show. It tells you a lot about family, friends, love, and what does it cost you to go on pursuing dreams. I never thought this show would make me think about life. Analyze a lot. It's a nice show, and I am so wanting season three right now.

My favorite One Tree Hill quote at the moment:
"Maybe you're taking a step back as a basketball player, but you're taking 2 steps forward as a man" -Coach Whitey

Ps. I hate Windows Live! Looks too boxy to like!!

Pss. UMEE; I NEED MY ROOM KEYS!! WALA I HATE THIS NO PRIVACY WHAT SO EVER!!!!!

Hectic..

Well, I'm about to bable on and on, I warned you, this is soooo not gonna look pretty:

• If I had a million dollars, I'd give them all out!
• I need to fix my cell phone already!
• I got a bad case of Tru Calling addiction!!
• I luv the theme song of the OC! I always picture myself driving a convertible by the beach when I hear it!
• Everybody got issues, but knowing your issues, and handling them is a lot better than acting as if you're perfect.
• I'm in luv with that Superman song *dreamy*
• Girls are so much weirder than guys!
• I luv music! In another life time I would so be a musician!!
• I wana kill two Syrians ho got a Saudi national, whom I work with!!
• TV is my best friend, people are too weird for me.
• Blogging is the best therapy ever.
• I want to kill one Syrian guy I know :@
• I can be raciest, but only in stereotyping and making fun.
• I'm so feeling weird today! Don't ask me about this post.
• One of my friends told me to stop hating the Jews and only hate the Zionist, I couldn't =\
• I love kids! Being cute is always a plus :D
• I do love my country! What do you mean it’s not perfect? is anything “perfect” in this world!
• My annoying co-worker quit =D
• I'm actually worried of how hot it was this year in Europe.
• I'm learning to stop my Internet addiction.
• I met a cute Filipino who if I didn't meet at the hospital would so be my friend!
• I need to go to GYM again!
• I believe day after day that self education is more important than formal education.
• I got a crush on this 34 year old doctor who is totally clueless!
• If I didn't hear Simple Plan everyday, I would so think I'm alone..
• If Mad World was not written, I would've wrote it myself!!
• I want to change my job, just because I'm bored of seeing the same faces everyday!
• My annoying co worker quit! (Well, actually she’s been politely kicked out) the important thing is, she left, and people can breath again! I CAN BREATH AGAIN!
• I learned to become carefree.
• Did I mention that my annoying co-worker quit twice?? :P lol
• I should interview a blogger, but I really have no idea who!
• Bloggers meet up turned out to be rather cuter than I thought.
• I’m not sleeping as much as I used to before, this is something I wanted to achieve.
• Food became something disgusting to me for the first time since a long time!
• I miss a lot of old friends, and I am having a lot of memories of them lately..
• I'm so tired, got a constant headache, and quite frankly I don't think my intra laisak operation was a success =(
• I wish that some things that I didn't choose in this life, didn't define me! But it does to me as it does to others!
• I am discovering my friends more and more everyday, and some stuff still surprises me!
• Sam is in Dubai, I miss her already 8(
• I still don't have DSL, but guess what, one of my neighbours got wireless!! :D the signal ain't always strong, but hey, beggers can't be choosers!
• My Beach house saving account might get cashed out, near future looks uncertain 8(
• I leaned to know how to have fun with as little as I got.
• Sali from Star Ac gets on my nerves :S and I do miss Ahmed! After all, he was perfect :P
• I owe dad a huge apology 8(
• I am worried about mama's health, she doesn't look so hot lately! Allah yostor ya rab
• I miss my morning journeys with my sis.
• I will become skinny!

Over! I'm tired!!

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Is life treating you weird these days, do you feel left out when you see a lot of changes, and your friends are leaving.. Do you feel like you're too young to be living like this?? Or is it the other way around and you think you should be acting more mature!! Does everyone really know everyone and the world is small, or is it just that you look for connections to feel less like outsiders.. Why is everything reminding you of him? Why do you still see him everywhere, even hought it's been so long since it's over!!

I am in a place in my life where I look like I figured it all out, but really, I’m more confused than ever..

I'm Happy :D well, at least before Umee called!! Jk ;)

I CAN BLOG!!!
At last a google account!! Damn, these guys are getting richer everyday!!

Today started out like any other winter in Riyadh working day. Hardly can wake up, brush my teeth with my eyes shut and try to leave home early to reach work on time.

But today, I have heard this "AMAZING" news.. and I'm high all day :D it's impossible to think this could still make me happy but it did, what kills me is, it's confidential!! I wanted to put on a Circular!! Almohm I'm HAPPY :D

Oh, yeah, and I got a brand new cubicle!! And planning to get a sound system for my room (maybe these too, got something to do with my happiness, just maybe)

So anyways, as "certain" ex-bloggers - yeah, you know urselves =P- enjoy facebook too much.. I look back and think.. What would I miss if I left too..

I remember first blog I had, on multiply.. Then Alyana told me about her blog, and then Nora.. and I was like wow, that has a million more options, and I joined, I didn't tell either of them, cuz I wanted to blog for me.. But they found out cuz the Saudi blogger community was too small then, I miss their blogs, I miss lotsa people who used to blog..

Only 3 of my friends know about my blog. I don't really want people to know.. And sometimes I think more and more people know.. But did that make me change my mind about having a blog.. I always liked to write down my feelings, papers, sms, email.. I used to -and might still do- have a problem in speaking about my feelings.. When I'm hurt, I cry. When I feel misjudged, I cry.. When I'm accused of something I didn't do, I cry!!!! I can be my own ball of emotional trauma!! And I luv my own time alone, my Fo0f-time..

Sometimes you call, I hear the phone, I'm not really busy with anything, but I choose not to pick up, sometimes I agree to a meet and cancel and make up a reason, just because I felt chocked.. Wanted some air, needed my own time. Or needed a break from you.. I never judged people's behaviour which I don't approve of.. So I think they should cut me some slack and let me be, without being judged, or blamed..

So anyways, this writing thing have always helped me through out the years, it's always been a kind of therapy that I have made out to solve my own problems.. I am in love with it now, I can't leave it, I owe it too much.. And I don't thin I can live with out it, I don't want to be a great writer.. I just want to "be".. And write.. And continue to write.. For me =)