Showing posts with label blast from the past. Show all posts
Showing posts with label blast from the past. Show all posts

Friday, November 09, 2007

Say Hello to the New Mrs ;)

So.. i'm a woman now? hehe, does that even make sense.. does getting married mean you've converted from (girl) to (woman)? so if u've never wed and ur 40 years of age, ur still a (girl)?? mmm.. interesting how living in saudi arabia effect on my way of thinking =P

okay, i cant believe i'm actually thinking this, but i want a boy.. i want to have 3 boys, and that's it. when i reach 45 years old. i get pregnant again and get a lil girl the we all spoil rotten! yeah i know it's so weird how one day i'm thinking i dont wana have kids, next day thinking about names !!there's a story behind everything with me.. so here goes;

i met this extraordinary woman in thailand this year, she's moms age. but she's so lively.. she works in the same teaching sector as mama. she has a successful engineer husband (ahem, dad!), and BAM they graduated from the same state uni that my parents graduated from, just a couple of years later!! how bazar is that!

this woman was so intelligent and had her own thoughts.. it was surprising to me as i always thought these women who were involved in the teaching sector were close-minded women who dont think for themselves.. (mom and her friends effected that way of thinking sadly) i met the woman in a shopping mall in bangkok.. we shopped together!!!! mom never told me this would look nice on me, what to get and what not! sheesh!! i think i got issues!! hehe..

we then met with her hubby, who was nice enough to walk around the mall with us and sit in each shop waiting for us to finish :P and her 3 boys (yeah u got me, i want to be something like her!) she was successful and interesting and fun and had her on head with her own thoughts!!!

my mom is pretty open minded and intellectual and well touted. but once she hit home, she started to become a copy of every middle aged woman in saudi.. she started copying wht her peers do and think. and i'm kinda embarrassed i'm saying this. i actually told her the other day, mom please when with anyone, talk about ur views on the community.. ur dreams, ur past and future.. ur thoughts on life.. dont just sit around talking about wht ur bros and sisters do in life (jobs), or asking question like who are u married to, who's ur uncles and how many kids do u have!! makes u sound STUPID when it's all u can think of in a convo..

can u tell i'm mad at her? it seems like i always am!

when my friends say their moms their friend, i used to wonder whats wrong with me!!! now i know it's whats wrong with momzy.. no wonder i got issues, *rolling eyes*

Saturday, August 11, 2007

I'm back! big time!!

so, i missed my blog. period!

i'm gonna work on it again, new layout, new chatty box, new bloggers links!! i seen lotsa new bloggers who got it goin on.. so yeah, i'm back!

:D

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Bleh.

Bleh..

This blog has come and gone, went on and off, seen happy times and not so happy times, met through ppl and got to know ppl, whom both i hate, luv, adore, respect and resent.. i NEVER thought blogging would have had an effect on my life. After all. I started blogging as a way to vent :)

As i come back today, after a long breakup with my blog, to complain, i realise i owed my blog too much. i wouldnt have become who i am without it. being good or bad, is not up to me to decided, but i know this much, i like myself much much more now. i've really learned.

so yesterday was crappy, yeah thats all i'm gonna say for the time being. blogging aint safe anymore, and ya'll know wht i mean..

Again, bleh.

Monday, May 21, 2007

Cleaning Out My Closet

Wow. as I re-read our convos.. This one last time, before I clean my PC from the dust.. I go through ur words and I remember the pain! The fear! The confusion!! The hurt!! How I put up with all ur stupid lies! With ur crazy ideas! How I made up excuses for you to people, when I didn't believe them but thought I should protect you!

And now, as I read again, I just feel... numb.

~Lol, someone tells me ur gay!! LMAO.

Sunday, May 06, 2007

I Guess.. I Never Hated You

Speechless..
Lotsa events..
I guess writing aint gonna give you the feeling!