My Name is Fo0f and I am Suspicious-ic.

OK. This is gonna be weird, -For me, not for you!!- Being a suspicious person, I always thought I had a good thing going on for me here. As it is never bad to be suspicious, it makes you think about the situation, and analyze it and always gets you a logical explanation given the variables you have. Or at least that's what I thought for my last 22 years.

My suspicious behavior always got me to solve a lot of problems and always made me think wisely before I con somebody - as a prank of course!! Or parents, dauh!- I always enjoyed it. I don't say it was always right but I don't go on accusing people and that's what kept me on the safe side always, you are a liar, and I know, but you don't know I know. And we can both co exist, me knowing how your mind thinks, and you thinking I'm too dumb to get what your trying to pull.

So the other day at work, I been getting the weirdest calls, someone's been calling me and hanging up, and I'm used to that from my annoying co worker, she wants to know if I'm there, or she just wants to annoy me. The stupid thing is, I can hear her punching my numbers, and hanging up!! We're two cubicles away for God's sake!!!

So this was going on for a while, then my cell phone, missed calls from a “sawa” number. I was like OK. What does she want to do now =\ and I was in the middle of a discussion with a colleague and it did annoy me!! So I told him, please call this number!! I wanted to bust her and make her feel stupid, so he called. And it was the breakfast I ordered for the department, the guy bringing it was lost!!! TALK ABOUT A FLUSHED FO0F FACE!!

Good thing I didn't tell my colleague about my so-bright-conclusion!!! I would've been so embarrassed!!

~Fo0f, over and out.

I'm Happy :D well, at least before Umee called!! Jk ;)

I CAN BLOG!!!
At last a google account!! Damn, these guys are getting richer everyday!!

Today started out like any other winter in Riyadh working day. Hardly can wake up, brush my teeth with my eyes shut and try to leave home early to reach work on time.

But today, I have heard this "AMAZING" news.. and I'm high all day :D it's impossible to think this could still make me happy but it did, what kills me is, it's confidential!! I wanted to put on a Circular!! Almohm I'm HAPPY :D

Oh, yeah, and I got a brand new cubicle!! And planning to get a sound system for my room (maybe these too, got something to do with my happiness, just maybe)

So anyways, as "certain" ex-bloggers - yeah, you know urselves =P- enjoy facebook too much.. I look back and think.. What would I miss if I left too..

I remember first blog I had, on multiply.. Then Alyana told me about her blog, and then Nora.. and I was like wow, that has a million more options, and I joined, I didn't tell either of them, cuz I wanted to blog for me.. But they found out cuz the Saudi blogger community was too small then, I miss their blogs, I miss lotsa people who used to blog..

Only 3 of my friends know about my blog. I don't really want people to know.. And sometimes I think more and more people know.. But did that make me change my mind about having a blog.. I always liked to write down my feelings, papers, sms, email.. I used to -and might still do- have a problem in speaking about my feelings.. When I'm hurt, I cry. When I feel misjudged, I cry.. When I'm accused of something I didn't do, I cry!!!! I can be my own ball of emotional trauma!! And I luv my own time alone, my Fo0f-time..

Sometimes you call, I hear the phone, I'm not really busy with anything, but I choose not to pick up, sometimes I agree to a meet and cancel and make up a reason, just because I felt chocked.. Wanted some air, needed my own time. Or needed a break from you.. I never judged people's behaviour which I don't approve of.. So I think they should cut me some slack and let me be, without being judged, or blamed..

So anyways, this writing thing have always helped me through out the years, it's always been a kind of therapy that I have made out to solve my own problems.. I am in love with it now, I can't leave it, I owe it too much.. And I don't thin I can live with out it, I don't want to be a great writer.. I just want to "be".. And write.. And continue to write.. For me =)

Week-ends not so Exciting Anymore?

I just can't get over the fact that my in tray has too much paper, I got a million pending cases that need follow ups and I didn't do my quarterly report yet!! What's wrong with me!! I really can't get over leaving work like this.. I seriously want to go to work tomorrow!!

~LOL, so I hear facebook is the new blogspot ;)

Fo0f Kids .. :3

It's a girls year!! All the babies are cuttttee girls this year!!

My friend is about to have a baby, when she knew it was a girl, she started panicking to think of a name.. I didn't know it was this hard, till I tried to help her.. I never even thought of what would I name my own kids!! I want my kids to have cute names.. But when a cute name is named everyone steals it!! Like Rand!! Everyone's a Rand now!! Or Leen/Layan!! And I so wanted a baby Talal but my cousin names her baby Talal so now I need new ideas!!

I was at Rima'z blog -where I can not comment- and read this recent post also about having babies and naming them.. I liked Jana... But obviously it's gonna be a lot, and I don't want to steal it from Rima =P

So.. As you can see, I been thinking of my own babies names.. I got some prospective now.. But guess what, I am afraid to share them with people now, so they won't use em before I do!!

Call me selfish.. It's a tough world! And do share if you got cute names in mind :P

Note(s) to Self

I had a nice weekend.. I lost my wallet!! I am IDless and Cardless!! You feel like you lost yourself for a while, but now I cancelled my cards I'm ok, it's time to buy a new wallet anyways!! -LOL, moi's doing a great job taking it easy, don't ya think ;)-

I saw friends, family.. I went out and partied, fought with mama (something odd if it didn't happen).. Met someone really sweet and interesting.. I got some notes, pls this is for my documentation.. If you don't like it then =P

• Learn how to dance in a mini skirt! -it's surprisingly hard!-
• Be always ready for change.
• Don't take my baby sis to any of my gatherings!!
• Don't call someone who smsed just cuz I lost their number and wana know who they are :$

that's it for now.. Weekend over, back to work.. I'll watch some more One Tree Hill.. Then off to bed..

I Find It Hard To Say (Rebel)

Ok, yeah, alright...

I find it hard to say, that everything is alright
Don't look at me that way, like everything is alright
Cuz my own eyes can see, through all your false pretenses
But what you fail to see, is all the consequences
You think our lives are cheap, and easy to be wasted
As history repeats, so foul you can taste it
And while the people sleep, too comfortable to face it
His life so incomplete, and nothing can replace it
Fret not thyself I say, against these laws of man
Cuz like the Bible says, His blood is on their hands
And what I gotta say, and what I gotta say, is rebel
While today is still today, choose well
And what I gotta say, is rebel, it can't go down this way
Choose well, choose well, choose well......choose well, choose well, choose well
And while the people sleep, too comfortable to face it
Your lives are so incomplete, and nothing, and no one, can replace it
No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no
And what I gotta say, and what I gotta say
And what I gotta say, and what I gotta say
And what I gotta say, and what I gotta say
And what I gotta say, and what I gotta sayIs rebel... rebel, rebel, rebel, rebel, rebel, rebel
Rebel, rebel, rebel, rebel, rebel
Repent, the day is far too spent, rebel... rebel!
Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up...
Wake up and rebel
We must destroy in order to rebuild
Wake up, you might as well
Oh are you... oh are you satisfied
Oh are you satisfied
Rebel... ohhh rebel
Why don't you rebel, why don't you rebel?
Why don't you rebel?
I'm fading myself down now...

Bad Day!

15 Jan 07'

bad day.. Weird day.. The problem is, it will effect other days.. God, please, get me justice! And get the hypocrite a hell on earth! Amen

I got a huge headache!!! Off..

MY New Years Resolutions

I do have new years resolutions after all. I hope I can remember them, I wana post 'em here so I can keep track.. They were 8~9 I guess..

1. To loosen up, not take a lot of stuff seriously
2. Become less sensitive
3. Reach that certain weight I want
4. Save a certain amount of money
5. Be honest about my feelings
6. If a thing takes only one minute to do, do it right away
7. Complete my higher education
8. Try to convince my parents that they worry too much
9. Say I luv you, more often
   

Okay I cant remember if this is it, or is something missing, if I do remember, I'll update and pin this post somewhere..

~Updated, thanks Umeee ;)

As Always.. I've Got a Lot to Say..

Helooooo!!

First off, I'd like to say, if you missed me, blame blogger (and it's stupid upgrades!!), if not; blame yourselves =P

I was watching this special about this girl who got fired, cuz her employer found out about her blog!!!! Then, the very next day, I see my own blog being circulated in the internal employees emails! So, I got pretty crept out.. It's not like I tell Company secrets, but still, the attention made me unfomfy.. Then again it's my blog, and I will keep on saying what I want in it.

It's been over a month on my op, and I think that the doctor will make me go again, I still can't see clearly.. I had a dream about it, a real good looking doctor was operating.. I have to remember..

I am watching One Tree Hill lately, and Paden is really getting on my nerves.. I never met someone like that, but if I did, I might go ahead and kill her =\, Lucas on the other hand, is too good!! (at least so far) I mean, where I come from, kids who are not so fortunate to have good schooling and family bonds, turn out to be the worst..

Weekend, a friend I used to like woke me up, she was asking me why I dont call her and meet her no more, @10 IN THE MORNING!! AND CLEARLY SHE WAS TALKING TO ME WHILE SLEEPING!!! I didnt want to hurt her feelings by saying something stupid cuz of the sleep effect.. So I told her I'd call her back when I wake up..

This girl, told me something 3 weeks ago, that made me think so much less of her, I am trying not to judge, but lets say her view on some things made me think less of her and not like her.. I hate people who dont think like me.. I am too found with the way I think.. I know I aint perfect, but at least I'd like to be around the people who "think" not look, like me..

2007

Just when I thought this year is gonna be hard to be a good year for me, it started out with something I never thought would happen! Hope it continues at this pace!
Ps. I have to fix my old cell or get a new one, ASAP!

How Was ur Break?

Right now, I feel like meeting friends. And my family feels like seeing relatives, and since I am not the "decision maker" in this house, I had to put up with what they wanted to do, and accept that I am not going out, just because going out to meet friends while they meet relatives is a big taboo -at least in their heads- I don't want to even get started on how people think in my family. I don't say I think perfectly, nor that I am a family person, I see my grandparents, aunts and uncles once a month at least. And I think that is more than enough for someone who works 10 hrs a day, 5 days a week and has lotsa friends she rarely sees.

I don't know why I don't feel as bummed as before, I think it has to do with a convo I had yesterday with a friend (she was online, I didn’t see her!) She told me I was too sensitive and that made some people afraid of getting close to me, and that I get hurt easily. I think that got me thinking, of course after I rained her with her insecurities as pay back =P don’t worry, we love each other.

I discovered a new thing about me - it is amusing that you still "learn" things about yourself-. A convo like the one I had with my friend, really sinks in, gets me deep. See I take what people say most of the time seriously, yesterday, it did me a lot of good. And I am grateful to her.

On another note, Abdul from work sent me a happy new year SMS!! That guy hates me!! Lol, what's happening to this world??! Plus, I thought he was kinda.. Mutawa'a? =P lol, guess looks (and behaviour) are deceiving..

I don't have new year resolutions, it's the same old 22nd birthday wishes, I just thought, now I got 4 months only to get them all done, so I better step up on those goals, may God help me, and bless the ones I luv. Amen

~Fo0f

Ace Tag..Hay2ah Petition.. And Karma..

Ace thought I had nothing to write about -she was right!-, so decided to help me out and tag me.. Thanks girl ;)

1.- If I were a fruit I'd be... Strawberry
2.- If I were a colour I'd be... Green
3.- If I were an animal I'd be... Horse
4.- If I were a domestic appliance I'd be... An International Plug Adapter!
5.- If I were a book I'd be... A History book probably about the French revolution!
6.- If I were a clothing item I'd be... A scarf
7.- If I were a jewel / stone I'd be... Amber
8.- If I were an object I'd be... The leaning tower of Pisa
9.- If I were a car I'd be... A Red/Yellow mini cooper
10.- If I were an element I'd be... Air
11.- If I were a tree I'd be... A Bonsai Tree
12.- If I were a drink I'd be... Coke

13.- If I were an ice cream flavor I'd be... Pralines and cream
14.- If I were a person I'd be... Nate Berkus
15.- If I were a planet I'd be... The Sun!
16.- If I were an insect I'd be... A Bee
17.- If I were a form of public transport I'd be... A chopper
18.- If I were a song I'd be... I Believe I can Fly - R Kelly
19.- If I were a movie I'd be... The Wedding Singer!
20.- If I were a season I'd be... Summer
21.- If I were a flower I'd be... A Rose
22.- If I were a job I'd be... A Graphic Designer!
23.- If I were a cartoon I'd be... Kagemaro Igano =D
24.- If I were a place I'd be... Tokyo
25.- If I were a gift I'd be... Money =P
26.- If I were a memory I'd be... My winter 2003 vacation in Lebanon
27.- If I were a city I'd be... San Francisco
28.- If I were a sense I'd be... Smell
29.- If I were a game I'd be... Monopoly
30.- If I were a candy I'd be... I am not a big candy fan, but I like this one kind.. When I remember the name I'll post it, it's wrapped in red and it's colored like M&Ms.. Help?
31.- If I were a time of the day I'd be... Fajr, luv the morning time
32.- If I were an invention I'd be... A computer
33.- If I were a body-part I'd be... Legs
34.- If I were a country I'd be... Canada
35.- If I were a flavor I'd be... BBQ ;)
36.- If I were a sport I'd be... Skating
37.- If I were a smell I'd be... Vanilla
38.- If I were a subject I'd be... Physics!!
39.- If I were a flag I'd be... Italy =D luv the colors
40.- If I were a building I'd be.... Umm.. Didn't I answer this one??
41.- If I were a month I'd be... April
42.- If I were a perfume I'd be... Be delicious by Donna Karan
43.- If I were a gummy candy I'd be... I rather be choco
44.- No question ... ?? No answer LOL
45.- If I were a toy I'd be... A PSP 8)
46.- If I were a textile / fabric I'd be... Fur?
47.- If I were a shape I'd be... A Triangle
48.- If I were an answer I'd be... Yes
49.- If I were a store I'd be... Saks Fifth Avenue =D
50.- If I were a word I'd be... Passion

I would like to tag Fishy so she'd find something to blog about, also Lamya so she can end her story =P, Euphoria, so she can write a new post at last.. Bored, well because he's bored!! And Raheel before he starts another post about another 10 things we dont know about him..

I would like to bring to your attention that there is a letter to King Abdullah "Vote to Remove most of 'Alhe2a' Authority". Please put this link in your next blog or so and sign with us all ,, There are 18,000,000 Saudi and the ppl who signed until now only 97 !! (ME)
http://www.petitiononline.com/haia/

I been thinking alot lately, to the extent of not posting any more.. I am packing as I am going to the UAE later today, and I'm thinking of taking my rollerblades out of the cabinets and playing with them daily there, I always complain I got no where to play here, but I always forget to bring them when I travel, this time, I'm hitting the skate parks! Wish me luck!!

Have a nice weekend people..

Dreams..Work..Boredom >> Shopping!!

Last night I had a dream that I am steaming hot.. Getting sick.. I woke up sweating, and didn't go to work.. Went back to bed after I called work.. Turns out a lot are sick, not only me.

By noon I went to watch some TV, RR rerun was on, she was having a surprise B'day party for this guy who's going to Afghanistan, and brought him Edward McCain to sing live!! It was emotional, LOL, well at least I thought so..

It's still noon, and I am bored, maybe I'll just go to work for the rest of the day =\ NOT!! I'm off to mamlakah =P

Oh.. Did I say "Yay weekend"?? Lol, wll I need to learn some more phrases, this is SO wearing out!!

"You're Always Like That!!" Boohoo!

Listening to: Freak Out, yeah by Avril!

Today was the last day of my diet, I was supposed to go out with my friends to Cafe du Paris for dinner.. One of my friends' moms is my moms friend, they decided to go vist my sick aunt allah yshfeeha today, and also decided that we go with them.. I didnt mind.. Called and postponed our dinner reservations. Came home tired, didnt talk to no one, had a bite, went to watch some TV, then went up to shower, at that time mom was coming down the stairs fully dressed, she said what am I doing? I said I'm going to shower.. So she says take ur time, dear.. I wont be out for another hour.. Okaaay.. I shower, dress up, tell my sister what I thought of what she wore =P call my friend, she ignores my call!!! Then go down looking for my orange and beige Pumas.. I hear mama saying she's waiting for her cousin!! I go up, and decided I don’t want to go.. I just fet like tired, sleepy, want my space! And mama now hates me =\ what I do? I didn’t ask you to wait up, u were waiting for YOUR cousin!! And my sister pinches in =\ faj2ah wth!! Just cuz she's going without me now!! I don't have to be with you, you got your own life!! Damn.. I feel like I got no personal space anymore.. I had plans that day and they ruined it, and I am the one to blame!! In case you were wondering.. Yeah, I am angry!

This Post Contains Multiple Messages to Various People

I totally believe in Karma, I hope more people do, for the sake of themselves =)

If you don't think you should love your friend, you're not a friend at all.

Today, I realized too much in my life is happening on purpose, it's really happening in a sequence, and it makes me feel that it's so fated!! Rabe katb it happens!!! I hope all goes well *crossingfingers*

People are asses, don't try to please them.

Espanol in Manahel starts second week of January, whoever wants to enroll, there is still time ;)

I reached peace with myself in work, I no longer despise nor hate who mistreated me, I will give as much as I can, for as long as I stay.

Your life is what you make of it, so stop complaining.

No more shyness, I am calling Kholood back!!! She said she will call me herself, but you know what Kholood, I'm the one who needs you, or your place for that matter, SO I'M CALLING YOU *lubing outlandish*

Some of the weirdest people I met, are the ones who are now closest to my heart.

I hate misunderstandings, I lost a real close friend because of one, and I am guessing it will never be the same again, from my friends part at least, I just wanted to say, I miss you, and you will always be in my heart, close or far, whatever u choose, I'll always cherish you.

I miss Sam, all the time.. I feel like it's sad what life did to us, how ur dad controlled us, and what this country made of us.

I don't like the idea of just adding up people to my msn.

I miss you little brother, I think you're the only one in this family that TRULY understand me, even Wendy Lee doesn't.

I thought a lot of bloggers were weird, but maybe it's me who's really weird, but I think my weirdness is not freaky! It's cute =P

When I see something nice and say I want to buy it, doesn't mean that I really am planning to!! It just means I think it's good enough, if I really wanted to buy something I'd go for it without saying it out loud ;)

I am on a diet, hope it all goes well, I am in lub with the skinny jeans and if I don't loose 'em hips I wont get one!!

Oh, yeah, since I am giving random messages; GET A LIFE!!

~P.S. If you think I am talking to you then I am talking to you!!