I'm Happy :D well, at least before Umee called!! Jk ;)

I CAN BLOG!!!
At last a google account!! Damn, these guys are getting richer everyday!!

Today started out like any other winter in Riyadh working day. Hardly can wake up, brush my teeth with my eyes shut and try to leave home early to reach work on time.

But today, I have heard this "AMAZING" news.. and I'm high all day :D it's impossible to think this could still make me happy but it did, what kills me is, it's confidential!! I wanted to put on a Circular!! Almohm I'm HAPPY :D

Oh, yeah, and I got a brand new cubicle!! And planning to get a sound system for my room (maybe these too, got something to do with my happiness, just maybe)

So anyways, as "certain" ex-bloggers - yeah, you know urselves =P- enjoy facebook too much.. I look back and think.. What would I miss if I left too..

I remember first blog I had, on multiply.. Then Alyana told me about her blog, and then Nora.. and I was like wow, that has a million more options, and I joined, I didn't tell either of them, cuz I wanted to blog for me.. But they found out cuz the Saudi blogger community was too small then, I miss their blogs, I miss lotsa people who used to blog..

Only 3 of my friends know about my blog. I don't really want people to know.. And sometimes I think more and more people know.. But did that make me change my mind about having a blog.. I always liked to write down my feelings, papers, sms, email.. I used to -and might still do- have a problem in speaking about my feelings.. When I'm hurt, I cry. When I feel misjudged, I cry.. When I'm accused of something I didn't do, I cry!!!! I can be my own ball of emotional trauma!! And I luv my own time alone, my Fo0f-time..

Sometimes you call, I hear the phone, I'm not really busy with anything, but I choose not to pick up, sometimes I agree to a meet and cancel and make up a reason, just because I felt chocked.. Wanted some air, needed my own time. Or needed a break from you.. I never judged people's behaviour which I don't approve of.. So I think they should cut me some slack and let me be, without being judged, or blamed..

So anyways, this writing thing have always helped me through out the years, it's always been a kind of therapy that I have made out to solve my own problems.. I am in love with it now, I can't leave it, I owe it too much.. And I don't thin I can live with out it, I don't want to be a great writer.. I just want to "be".. And write.. And continue to write.. For me =)

Week-ends not so Exciting Anymore?

I just can't get over the fact that my in tray has too much paper, I got a million pending cases that need follow ups and I didn't do my quarterly report yet!! What's wrong with me!! I really can't get over leaving work like this.. I seriously want to go to work tomorrow!!

~LOL, so I hear facebook is the new blogspot ;)

Fo0f Kids .. :3

It's a girls year!! All the babies are cuttttee girls this year!!

My friend is about to have a baby, when she knew it was a girl, she started panicking to think of a name.. I didn't know it was this hard, till I tried to help her.. I never even thought of what would I name my own kids!! I want my kids to have cute names.. But when a cute name is named everyone steals it!! Like Rand!! Everyone's a Rand now!! Or Leen/Layan!! And I so wanted a baby Talal but my cousin names her baby Talal so now I need new ideas!!

I was at Rima'z blog -where I can not comment- and read this recent post also about having babies and naming them.. I liked Jana... But obviously it's gonna be a lot, and I don't want to steal it from Rima =P

So.. As you can see, I been thinking of my own babies names.. I got some prospective now.. But guess what, I am afraid to share them with people now, so they won't use em before I do!!

Call me selfish.. It's a tough world! And do share if you got cute names in mind :P

Note(s) to Self

I had a nice weekend.. I lost my wallet!! I am IDless and Cardless!! You feel like you lost yourself for a while, but now I cancelled my cards I'm ok, it's time to buy a new wallet anyways!! -LOL, moi's doing a great job taking it easy, don't ya think ;)-

I saw friends, family.. I went out and partied, fought with mama (something odd if it didn't happen).. Met someone really sweet and interesting.. I got some notes, pls this is for my documentation.. If you don't like it then =P

• Learn how to dance in a mini skirt! -it's surprisingly hard!-
• Be always ready for change.
• Don't take my baby sis to any of my gatherings!!
• Don't call someone who smsed just cuz I lost their number and wana know who they are :$

that's it for now.. Weekend over, back to work.. I'll watch some more One Tree Hill.. Then off to bed..

I Find It Hard To Say (Rebel)

Ok, yeah, alright...

I find it hard to say, that everything is alright
Don't look at me that way, like everything is alright
Cuz my own eyes can see, through all your false pretenses
But what you fail to see, is all the consequences
You think our lives are cheap, and easy to be wasted
As history repeats, so foul you can taste it
And while the people sleep, too comfortable to face it
His life so incomplete, and nothing can replace it
Fret not thyself I say, against these laws of man
Cuz like the Bible says, His blood is on their hands
And what I gotta say, and what I gotta say, is rebel
While today is still today, choose well
And what I gotta say, is rebel, it can't go down this way
Choose well, choose well, choose well......choose well, choose well, choose well
And while the people sleep, too comfortable to face it
Your lives are so incomplete, and nothing, and no one, can replace it
No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no
And what I gotta say, and what I gotta say
And what I gotta say, and what I gotta say
And what I gotta say, and what I gotta say
And what I gotta say, and what I gotta sayIs rebel... rebel, rebel, rebel, rebel, rebel, rebel
Rebel, rebel, rebel, rebel, rebel
Repent, the day is far too spent, rebel... rebel!
Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up...
Wake up and rebel
We must destroy in order to rebuild
Wake up, you might as well
Oh are you... oh are you satisfied
Oh are you satisfied
Rebel... ohhh rebel
Why don't you rebel, why don't you rebel?
Why don't you rebel?
I'm fading myself down now...

Bad Day!

15 Jan 07'

bad day.. Weird day.. The problem is, it will effect other days.. God, please, get me justice! And get the hypocrite a hell on earth! Amen

I got a huge headache!!! Off..

MY New Years Resolutions

I do have new years resolutions after all. I hope I can remember them, I wana post 'em here so I can keep track.. They were 8~9 I guess..

1. To loosen up, not take a lot of stuff seriously
2. Become less sensitive
3. Reach that certain weight I want
4. Save a certain amount of money
5. Be honest about my feelings
6. If a thing takes only one minute to do, do it right away
7. Complete my higher education
8. Try to convince my parents that they worry too much
9. Say I luv you, more often
   

Okay I cant remember if this is it, or is something missing, if I do remember, I'll update and pin this post somewhere..

~Updated, thanks Umeee ;)

As Always.. I've Got a Lot to Say..

Helooooo!!

First off, I'd like to say, if you missed me, blame blogger (and it's stupid upgrades!!), if not; blame yourselves =P

I was watching this special about this girl who got fired, cuz her employer found out about her blog!!!! Then, the very next day, I see my own blog being circulated in the internal employees emails! So, I got pretty crept out.. It's not like I tell Company secrets, but still, the attention made me unfomfy.. Then again it's my blog, and I will keep on saying what I want in it.

It's been over a month on my op, and I think that the doctor will make me go again, I still can't see clearly.. I had a dream about it, a real good looking doctor was operating.. I have to remember..

I am watching One Tree Hill lately, and Paden is really getting on my nerves.. I never met someone like that, but if I did, I might go ahead and kill her =\, Lucas on the other hand, is too good!! (at least so far) I mean, where I come from, kids who are not so fortunate to have good schooling and family bonds, turn out to be the worst..

Weekend, a friend I used to like woke me up, she was asking me why I dont call her and meet her no more, @10 IN THE MORNING!! AND CLEARLY SHE WAS TALKING TO ME WHILE SLEEPING!!! I didnt want to hurt her feelings by saying something stupid cuz of the sleep effect.. So I told her I'd call her back when I wake up..

This girl, told me something 3 weeks ago, that made me think so much less of her, I am trying not to judge, but lets say her view on some things made me think less of her and not like her.. I hate people who dont think like me.. I am too found with the way I think.. I know I aint perfect, but at least I'd like to be around the people who "think" not look, like me..

2007

Just when I thought this year is gonna be hard to be a good year for me, it started out with something I never thought would happen! Hope it continues at this pace!
Ps. I have to fix my old cell or get a new one, ASAP!

How Was ur Break?

Right now, I feel like meeting friends. And my family feels like seeing relatives, and since I am not the "decision maker" in this house, I had to put up with what they wanted to do, and accept that I am not going out, just because going out to meet friends while they meet relatives is a big taboo -at least in their heads- I don't want to even get started on how people think in my family. I don't say I think perfectly, nor that I am a family person, I see my grandparents, aunts and uncles once a month at least. And I think that is more than enough for someone who works 10 hrs a day, 5 days a week and has lotsa friends she rarely sees.

I don't know why I don't feel as bummed as before, I think it has to do with a convo I had yesterday with a friend (she was online, I didn’t see her!) She told me I was too sensitive and that made some people afraid of getting close to me, and that I get hurt easily. I think that got me thinking, of course after I rained her with her insecurities as pay back =P don’t worry, we love each other.

I discovered a new thing about me - it is amusing that you still "learn" things about yourself-. A convo like the one I had with my friend, really sinks in, gets me deep. See I take what people say most of the time seriously, yesterday, it did me a lot of good. And I am grateful to her.

On another note, Abdul from work sent me a happy new year SMS!! That guy hates me!! Lol, what's happening to this world??! Plus, I thought he was kinda.. Mutawa'a? =P lol, guess looks (and behaviour) are deceiving..

I don't have new year resolutions, it's the same old 22nd birthday wishes, I just thought, now I got 4 months only to get them all done, so I better step up on those goals, may God help me, and bless the ones I luv. Amen

~Fo0f