Life.. As I see it..

Life is Sweet, When You Understand it :P

2009-10-14T06:32:00.001+04:00

Life is finally making sense to me, a lot of thing are unveiling. And lots more, I know what I want in them when I didnt.

Thank God! I'm finally getting enlightened. Oh, how I missed you my blog *hugs*

And I'm loving the Arabic saying that I translated in my subject line:

الحياة حلوة، بس نفهمها

Ps. What the hell is the followers!! wesh tha!!

How Much is Too Much..

2009-08-21T20:45:00.002+04:00

how much is too much?
when nothing matters anymore?

i think i lost myself in a big dusty city, and i need to find my path once again.
stand strong and step up.
life goes on.
everything will go on.

and it will be ok.

Online Gaming

2008-12-17T00:31:00.001+04:00

i'm addicted to travian.

i can not do anything anymore.

i wake up from sleep to play for a min and go back to bed!

is that bad???

Not Yet..

2008-11-02T16:24:00.003+04:00

Ever since i could hold a pen, and i wanted to publish a novel.
and nowadays everyone is publishing bullshit, i don't know why people read such crap! is it kuz we don't have that much writers!

anyways, i feel like time is flying and i'm 24 and my novel is still in chapter 4 :S

i want to finish.
i don't care if it gets published or not anymore.

How Easy Can a Person Change..

2008-08-23T13:57:00.003+04:00

I been wondering.. How easily can people change once they've grown up, they can have 3 or 4 beliefs shifting as they mature.. But when and where does this change..

When we were younger, it would be because my parents tout me, or school, or a book.

Now, as a grown up, u get facts and knowledge from people, TV, Internet, books.. And still, you know you can question them, and nothing or no one is 100% right.

Why do we shift, why do we change our prospective of things?

I think on of the reasons is kuz of people you care for, or look up to... You end up adopting there ideas and principles, as you like the way they think. Another reason is for God, your relationship (most of the time) with God gets better as you grow up, and that is another reason why.. Usually who you are is the result of your surroundings, and as they change, you change?

I wish i could've learned more on philosophy issues now(since i'm wondering a lot lately!).. it seems to interest me, and I'll start looking for it online..

I'll take the last 2 weeks of Ramadhan off, and i'll work on my plans. I'll freeze my gym prescription, and i'll try to join the karate dojo to continu my lessons after Ramadhan.

Ramadan Kareem everyone :)

Pfffffffffft... Second Week!!

2008-07-29T01:16:00.002+04:00

young people at work are really IRRESPONSIBLE!
all they want to do is have fun!!

they don't do their job right, and then they complain about the boss pushing them to do it!!! and in the end they talk back to the boss!! can u spell RUDE!

i am so so so so shocked! i was always the youngest, or amoung the young people in work, this time, i'm seeing the view from a higher window, and i'm not liking it at all!

allah yhdeehom o y3glhom o yb3dne 3an mashakelhom!

amen!

New Beginings..

2008-07-14T12:39:00.003+04:00

An interesting twist in my career is happening, and an interesting change on how I look at my life.
I hope things go well *crossingfingers*

It so happens that I am an independent human being, and it's not easy to change that, stubbornness comes with it. I just hope I am not too stubborn.

Lawrence of Arabia, and Our so Called Traditional Red and White Shimagh!!!!!

2008-06-10T00:36:00.010+04:00

As far as I knew, Lawrence of Arabia was an old historical movie name. I never thought it was based on a true story about how east and west crossed hundreds of years ago. It would've been so much more interesting to me to watch and/or read about!

Furthermore, I was discussing how my dad never wore a shemagh.. And how he always wore a ghotrah, I always thought it was so khaliji of my dad. Plus, it's cooler in the summer, it looks better and he cares about his looks :P

Anyways, someone told me the sad truth! Still, I didn't find anything that agreed with that fact (as in written proof of this story) but I’ll tell u guys anyways; Lawrence was having some bawin visitors, and he didn't want to feel as an outsider between them or something, so he took out his table spread (EL SOFRAH!) which was red and white, and put it on his head!!! LOL

This is one of the weirdest stories about a tradition yet!

And in the end, i gotta say; I am happy seeing Sting wearing it! I love how the koffyah is now a big fashion trade mark!! :D

Would you wear the shimagh now? ;)

I Love my Neighbor!! Yeah. I Never Thought I'd Say That

2008-06-05T14:36:00.003+04:00

So..
I posted something on the buildings news board. and we got a call! we have free internet! I am loving the neibors now <3

and since i got internet i thought i just had to blog about something although i usually blog when i got something bothering me, or an idea that i wanted to toss and see how it sounds.. lol, so this is a lil weird.

next week i got finals, i should be finishing up my math book, but well.. i got internet so hell with school (yeah, i didnt use it for so long, you cant blame me!)

i might be moving to Kuwait, and all of a sudden i feel weird.. i always wanted to go there, like on a vacation.. But now since i'm going to live there i'm getting a seriouse case of cold feet.

well, this was the update from the Fo0f. i'm back for real now.. so blog ya later! (i know it sounds lame, i'll try something else next time :P)

over and out~

A Saudi Version of Gossip Girl Would be a Great Idea for Someones Blog, yeah, not mine..

2008-04-24T19:46:00.001+04:00

So..
Gossip girl is a blogger? interesting, imagine if someone did that to our community! No, dont, it would be blocked and shut down by authorities :S

Yeah yeah, i'm back.. i dont have a regular internet connection, pray for me! I miss the cyber world!

Yes, I Do..

2008-03-11T22:08:00.006+04:00

Do I feel pressured.. ?
Do I feel scared.. ?
Do I feel confused.. ?
Do I think I can handle it.. ?
Do I appreciate friends and family even more now.. ?
Do I think I'm gonna miss home.. ?
Do I need prayer now more than ever.. ?
Do I think I can do it.. ?

Yes, I do..

Losing Faith..

2008-02-20T04:22:00.006+04:00

Do you believe that a single traumatic experience can change a person? And that this change is not going to be in his/her personality, how he/she treats people or life. No, but something deeper, like he/she can't find joy in life! That good things and blessings don't make him/her happy.

When I thought deeply I thought this might be like losing faith, not in the creator, but in people, and things.. And not giving shit about anything anymore! It’s life without hope, it makes no meaning anymore, or gives no joy!

Isn’t that the worst that could happen to a person!

I believe that traumas do bad things to people, things that close people might not understand.. I been reading a lot of psyche books lately and I wish it didn’t kuz it saddens me and makes me look at everyone, in a whole new way!!!

How could you reverse it!

Is it true that time heals all wounds??

In the Spirit of Valentines :D

2008-02-15T05:27:00.002+04:00

First off, happy Valentines to everyone.

This year’s Valentines, I got to wonder, about love and truth, and loyalty.
And from the first things that came to my mind is how people always stereotype the Hollywood couple as a disaster, and never having a happy ending (whatever that is).
But, when some of the most famous people came to my mind, I realized, true love and success stories are there!!

Here is a list of who came to my mind! Please feel free to add ;)

Will Smith and Jada Pinkett Smith
Guy Ritchie and Madonna
Oprah Winfrey and Stedman
Freddie Prinze Jr. and Sarah Michelle Gellar
Courteney Cox and hubby David Arquette
Goldie Hawn and Kurt Russell
Beyonce Knowles and Jay-Z
Tim McGraw and Faith Hill
Gwen Stefani and Gavin Rossdale
Matthew Broderick and Sarah Jessica Parker
David Beckham and Victoria
John Travolta and Kelly Preston
Susan Sarandon and Tim Robbins

Don’t we just have TOO MUCH cynics in this world!

The Arabian Husband, Can Not be a "Friend".

2008-02-13T19:46:00.004+04:00

I’m quoting married women here.

This was kinda depressing to read, I always thought my husband would be my best friend, I mean, we will do lotsa things together, and enjoy them, isn't that friendship, planning our lives together, that's even greater than friendship, and lastly having someone to talk to..

I’d still like to think that we'll be that and more.

So is it true? That "The Arabian Husband, Can Not be a "Friend". And the Arabian Wife is her Husbands Biggest Cynic"? -the second part was my own observation-

I would like to hear some of your points of view?

I Should Stop Going to Weddings!!

2008-02-01T04:52:00.000+04:00

Seriously! What's wrong with me!!

Since I been engaged a year ago and every wedding I go to, I cry. After the zafa, when the mom of the bride cries, or if the groom does something cute.

Today at my cousins wedding i couldn't stop the tears!! It was like we were close!! And we were so not!!!!!! I thought in my own wedding will I break down like this?? Better yet, in my friends’ sis wedding next week!! And I realised, then, it's gonna be raining cats and dogs from Fo0f!!

I so hope not!

Resolutions.. And Finding One's Self..

2008-01-29T14:43:00.003+04:00

I been suffering a real bad mood lately.. These last 2 months i been discovering a lot about people and myself.. I been thinking too much.. And thank God, today I can say I am at peace with myself at last. i thank friends for being there. i poured my heart out, and I realized, it's okay to say ur lost, and u don't understand and ur afraid! And it always feels better to vent to the right people, so they can re-assure u that ur not lost in the first place..

I still have a lot not figured out, I don't understand a lot about him. he has a diary, and he told me about it, but told me I'm sorry I wont share it.. Mmmm, I wonder if he's one of you bloggers =P

Rotana called me for an HR coordinator job, I told them I'll get back to them but I didn't.. I don't know, the people who worked there, the girls to be precise, I couldn't accept them :S and I just thought, I'll find a better job inshallah soon.. I hate to quit without another job, I hate to quit and not know what will I do.. My only prayer now is that God makes my path easy and help me find my way.

So by next year inshallah, I wish to:
• Lose 10 or more KGs :D
• Visit one more country i never been to
• Be patient and try to let things go =)
• Learn a foreign language (preferable Espanol)
• Do something I like to do! (work )
• Keep in touch with valuable friends =')
• Buy less stuff

Luck ya'll.. in finding yourself, if you wanted to =P

Congrats Hilal for Breaking the Red Devils in Riyadh (the game just ended what else was I supposed to put here)

2008-01-21T23:13:00.000+04:00

So, it's been a while. I’ve been busting my ass studying! -yeah, right!- hehe, well anyways, I tried to bust my ass in studying =P I cant seem to remember how to study serious things. That’s why I was tripping over that Econ, I had the test today! And I can not tell you how relieved I am!

Anyhooz, I was planning to blog about how cold it's been here, but since the weather is normal now, I’ll let it go! Just know that it's scary to see an ICE layer on ur grass :S

The reason behind my blogging entry now is, I AM FRUSTRTED. Alhelal, which is my team! And Man U, which I used to root for back in their good days, are playing! Here in Riyo!!!!! And why am I not attending the game???? KUZ females are cursed when they are living in Saudi! That’s why!!! So why am I not watching it on TV?? Oh, yeah.. Kuz ART's stupid subscription expired 2 months ago and we just knew today kuz we never watch crappy ART!

So yeah, life's good.. Maybe it just happened to work that way so I can study :P haha, yeah whatev.. 2 more finals and I’m done, cross ur fingers for me folks!

One more thing, anyone other than me noticed that blogger went Arabic on them!!

Over and out =)

Just Another Day.. Another Blog Entry..

2008-01-09T11:23:00.004+04:00

I've been taking too long to study my Econ105. I never studied econ in my life, I'm kinda interested since it involves programming, and so far I didn't reach that section of the book. But soon, I should finish it today to start studying my other subjects.

My friends here for Xmas, I haven't seen her in 2 years! And she might be leaving this weekend without me seeing her since I have no time. LITERALLY!

I been yo-yo-ing the thought of quitting for so long, I've been slacking! Sheesh. I will not quit! THERE I SAID IT. Hope my unconscious mind believes this! –I say sheesh a loooot lately!-

On a slighter note; I've met this girl, who had real unpleasant looks. After spending some time and knowing her, she became pretty to me because of her wonderful characteristics.. Another, who is considered pretty, but since i know her, i never thought of her as a beautiful girl. It's weird.. I guess charm is really from within.

I still want a new blogskin, guess I'll play with the skin I got and see what happens. I might like what I get ;)

Fo0f's 2008 "Check List" (My Resolutions Aint Ready Yet :$)

2008-01-03T12:09:00.010+04:00

update:
6th of Jan.. bloggers went silent!
i went silent for fouad.

My Resolutions are on hold for the moment. Here's my check list:

Study both Econ and Comm this week.
Go to my apartment more often! -no reason required! I just wana go-
Try out my wedding gown :D need shoes and veil pronto!
Choose the flowers, choco, sweets, pastries, and choose a cake!
30 mins of cycling a day, goes to 1 hr next. No more eating at work.
Watch I am Legend and start watching Sex and the City.
Get in touch with Mayoosh before she goes back to the states!
Buy a golden watch.
Go online less.

I got a lot more on my mind, but let me see if I can stick to this, i'll be back next week to check

weekend at last :D some people invited THEMSELVES to Fudz and appearntly i'm paying, hehe.. good thing I aint eating at work anymore huh..

-Fo0f, over and out :)

BEWARE! Bloggin is Not Safe! (7asbe Allah Wa Ne3m Alwakeel)

2007-12-27T13:08:00.018+04:00

I have left the blogsphere for what seemed like a very long time since I was a usual blogger. The reasons were a mixture of work, being busy in life and that the Saudi blogging scene started to seem to me boring and worse and worse while time goes. It was noticed by the kind of posts and the kind of comments. Harassments on blogs and bloggers were just stupid.

I wished I had my identity anonymous, it is not.. But as time go by.. People started knowing me. And bloggers met up and it's not as anonymous as people think, even when were using screen names.

When i came back however -KUZ I LIKE TO WRITE AND I DONT VENT TO MY FRIENDS!- i had problems with getting a good layout.. still looking for one btw. But, i was introduced to a new set of ARABIC BLOGS and no, not the boring old ones, real nice blogs that i got addicted on reading! One was Mashe 9a7 and another was Fouad al Farhan and a couple more

As some of you might know by now, Fouad is now in jail for blogging. IN JAIL!! Jailed for having a point of view, jailed for gathring a bunch of banners for other bloggers to use, for some people who were jailed and he thought were innocent!!!

I pray for him to go back to his family safe and sound, I pray for all the terrorists to bomb themselves in their hideouts and let us live in peace and I pray for the government to give us a lil bit of freedom to speak our opinions! Even if it's just on the internet.

All of This reminds of when Farah (farahs sawaleef blog owner) deleted her blog. People told me that she was actually threatened the same way as Fouad was. And that they got to her father. I never talked to her about this before, kuz I thought it was just a myth. Now I am not so sure!

Click on the pic for the official Free Foaud page.

More on this topic:

The Amazing World of Colors..

2007-12-12T12:26:00.001+04:00

You can not believe how much colors fascinate me. When are beautifully set, they make my day! -talk about one low maintenance chic!-

I've been thinking which colors should go together, since all colors are favs to me, it's hard to make a random dress arrangement color theme, or an interior design idea.

I am not afraid though, as I said, I love colors.. And thank God, in this day and age, it's a fashion to mix and match ;)

UPDATE!

GREEN KITCHEN!!! GREEEEEN KITCHEN =\

I luuuv green, but not in my kitchen :S sheesh, mama should never suggest nothing to my fiance!

Let the Laziness Begin!

2007-12-09T20:15:00.000+04:00

yeah, i'm gonna stay at home :D i deserve it after all this hard work.
my mind is set.
i just hope i dont miss my job,

Deja Vous

2007-12-03T20:39:00.000+04:00

whoa.. *wiping forehead*

you all know what deja vous means.. you all been through it. what if i told you that my whole day of today was a series of deja vous!!!!

i was thinking of quitting. having a break for a couple of months, then hitting the working scene after i am done with my matters and i am more relaxed. and to TARGET the places where i wana work.

and for all of you who don't work, this is a very tough decision to make! and not for another better job, not for school, no.. to stay at home! -i'm doing my schooling by distance but that doesn't count-

so yeah, i couldn't do it! i chickened out! i need a push. and i have only my hubby to relay on, and i'm starting to think maybe it's too early to relay on him..

Fo0f, over and out. wow, i'm seriously back to blogging!

Lifetime Piling Up (stolen tag :$)

2007-11-26T12:32:00.023+04:00

ABOUT YOU!
1. What time is it: 11:33 am
2. Name: Fo0f the great :D
3. Nickname(s): Fo0f, Fo0fah, Fifi, Nuna, Nuni, Nuffy.. the list goes on
4. Where were you born: Riyadh Military Hospital
5. What is your birthdate: April 24, 1984
6. What do you want: sleep?
7. Where do you want to live: California!
8. How many kids do you want: i used to want so little, but now, i want lotsa kids
9. What would you want to name a girl: i'm not giving out the good names!!
10. What would you want to name a boy: same as above
11. You want to get married: guess so

..ARE YOU..
1. Simple or complicated: sooo simple people'd think i'm complicated
2. Gay: no
3. Hardcore: depends

Worst:
1. Time of day: waking up for work.
2. Day of the week: it's always sunday!
3. Color crayon: black, it never is really black!

Today:
1. What are you doing now: dodging work :$
2. Wearing: jeans, sneakers and a tee, but above it all my lovely abaya

Tomorrow:
1. Is: Tuesday
2. Got any plans: i dont plan ahead :P maybe i'll hit the spa/gym. or shopping, most probably tv
3. Goal: to loose seriouse wieght
4. Dislikes about tomorrow: nothing

Favorite:
1. Number: Seven! DUH
2. Song: I believe i can fly - R Kelly
3. Color: Lots

Currently:
1. Missing Someone: no =p
2. Mood: fine
3. Wanting: my headache to go away!

IN THE LAST MONTH, HAVE YOU?
1. Had a boyfriend or girlfriend: no
2. Bought something you didn't need: yes
3. Sang in front of people: i am always singing
4. Been kissed: yes :$
5. Been hugged: yes
6. Felt stupid: i dont recall
7. Got drunk: no
8. Got high: no
9. Danced crazy: i sure did
10. Gotten your hair cut: no
11. Cried: oh, yeah!
12. Lied: everyday! =\

DO YOU PREFER...
1. Sun or moon: both
2. Winter or Fall: Winter akeed, fall's depressing
3. Left or right : right
4. 10 acquaintances or having two best friends: two best friends
5. Sun or rain: rain
6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream: vanilla
7. Vodka or Jack: they both stink =p
8. Flowers or candy: flowers
9. Grey or black: black
10. Color or Black and white photos: color
11. Lust or love: love
12. Sunrise or sunset: rise
13. M&Ms or Skittles: Skittles
14. Staying up late or waking up early: waking up early NOT FOR WORK/SCHOOL. or staying late with good company!

LAST PERSON WHO:
1. Slept in a bed beside you: i think i never slept next to anyone unless were traveling i share a bed with one of my sisters. but last time i was sleeping with my sis and 2 of our friends :D we couldnt believe we were sleeping over! haha
2. Saw you cry: khalid my bro
3. Went to the movies with you: my lil sis and older bro
4. You went to the mall with: my sisters and Ally our friend
5. You went to dinner with: my aunt
6. You talked on the phone: Ally
8. Made you laugh: SAMMY!

Have-You-Evers
1. Dated A Best Friend: no
2. Been Arrested: no
3. Been On TV: no
4. Eaten Sushi: all the time :D'
5. Been On A Blind Date: lol, no
6. Been Out Of The Country: yes
7. Been In Love: yes (at least i thought i was)

-6 Things You've Done Today
1: woke up late
2: drank avocado juice for breakfast
3: slept in the car
4: smsed my fiance
5: prepared my monthly report
6: wasted some work time doing this!

-5 Favorite Things (not in any order)
1: music
2: love
3: friends
4: graphics
5: my family

Me and Mr Jones

2007-11-17T18:28:00.000+04:00

As happy as i am to have my own place, i know i got to start new habits.. which involves another person in everything :S this is not what i am used to.. okay i don't hide stuff. but i don't necessarily tell ppl abt my life.. that's one of the reasons i got a blog, i know i wana talk.. just not to ppl who actually know me :P
so yeah... i never thought it takes this much time, effort and money to plan a wedding! God bless u daddy for this.

Try to do:
Think of mama as hubby, share everything with her, bore her with my life :P sms her, call her and discuss matters with her :P
Sleep at 10 PM everyday
Start STICKING to a healthy diet
Go to the SPA and enjooy after work for an hr MINIMUM
Go to GYM 3 days a week (do the water exercise at least once a week!)
Think seriously about my job? is it worth it?
ACE MY EXAMS!
Take care of my self more.. dermatologist, laser experts and makeup lessons :P

anything i missed? i think not, any tips are appreciated ;)

Fo0f~

Say Hello to the New Mrs ;)

2007-11-09T03:08:00.000+04:00

So.. i'm a woman now? hehe, does that even make sense.. does getting married mean you've converted from (girl) to (woman)? so if u've never wed and ur 40 years of age, ur still a (girl)?? mmm.. interesting how living in saudi arabia effect on my way of thinking =P

okay, i cant believe i'm actually thinking this, but i want a boy.. i want to have 3 boys, and that's it. when i reach 45 years old. i get pregnant again and get a lil girl the we all spoil rotten! yeah i know it's so weird how one day i'm thinking i dont wana have kids, next day thinking about names !!there's a story behind everything with me.. so here goes;

i met this extraordinary woman in thailand this year, she's moms age. but she's so lively.. she works in the same teaching sector as mama. she has a successful engineer husband (ahem, dad!), and BAM they graduated from the same state uni that my parents graduated from, just a couple of years later!! how bazar is that!

this woman was so intelligent and had her own thoughts.. it was surprising to me as i always thought these women who were involved in the teaching sector were close-minded women who dont think for themselves.. (mom and her friends effected that way of thinking sadly) i met the woman in a shopping mall in bangkok.. we shopped together!!!! mom never told me this would look nice on me, what to get and what not! sheesh!! i think i got issues!! hehe..

we then met with her hubby, who was nice enough to walk around the mall with us and sit in each shop waiting for us to finish :P and her 3 boys (yeah u got me, i want to be something like her!) she was successful and interesting and fun and had her on head with her own thoughts!!!

my mom is pretty open minded and intellectual and well touted. but once she hit home, she started to become a copy of every middle aged woman in saudi.. she started copying wht her peers do and think. and i'm kinda embarrassed i'm saying this. i actually told her the other day, mom please when with anyone, talk about ur views on the community.. ur dreams, ur past and future.. ur thoughts on life.. dont just sit around talking about wht ur bros and sisters do in life (jobs), or asking question like who are u married to, who's ur uncles and how many kids do u have!! makes u sound STUPID when it's all u can think of in a convo..

can u tell i'm mad at her? it seems like i always am!

when my friends say their moms their friend, i used to wonder whats wrong with me!!! now i know it's whats wrong with momzy.. no wonder i got issues, *rolling eyes*

Airhead Anyone?

2007-10-15T19:01:00.000+04:00

I been very very very busy lately. and it's not kuz i should be busy, or that i have actually a lot to do. but it's more me trying to dodge thinking about some stuff that are not very pleasant to me, which i know my brains drooling around at the mo'.

so been to parties this last couple of weeks. danced like crazy there and home in front of concerts on video! been shopping for junk i never thought i needed, and for other stuff i never thought I'd go out to shop for.

called and got to know EVERY make up artist and hair stylist in Riyadh! photographers, dress makers! designers! cater service! flower shop!! and i heard all the Arabic songs i wana hear for a year!!!

oh, yeah, did i mention that i also broke a nail?

Why Would You Think I'd Change?

2007-10-13T17:03:00.000+04:00

It's interesting how people think ur gonna change drastically just because ur moving to a new city, ur starting a new job, u've met other people or.. You're getting married.

i'll still go to the same place i work at everyday, i'll complain about the same systems and long work hrs. i'll curse the transportation system, i'll have my daily junk food lunches and wonder when will i start eating healthy. i'll still listen to my Ipod, go all the way to the supermarket just to get olives and cheese.. i'll still enjoy drinking Lipton's Ice Tea.. Getting together doing random stuff with my friends on Wednesdays, sleeping on the couch in front of TV watching my fav sitcoms..

why would mom ask me to go with her to her med aged cousins weekly gathering!! Oh yeah, so it's 3eed! They still need to get something in common with me for me to hang around them..

Fo0f's Having Second Thoughts

2007-10-05T15:14:00.000+04:00

you were nice, looked okay. had a good future, a nice view of where u gonna be. came from a good family, and had great sisters.

i met with u and u were.. sweet for a first meet.

i liked, and i thought, well Fo0f, it's time. there's no reason to say no. so i said yes :)

now, while things show more and more clearer, i realised. all the things i thought i didnt like are showing, i don't think they are enough reasons, but still. i cant help it. i can't sleep at night. and when i do sleep, i get nightmares! i wake up frightened! is that right?

i am so torn in the middle, between what people think, and wht he thinks, and wht my parents think.. yeah, no one even asked what i thought. i know one thing. Mr T is so happy i'm leaving.

what's happening. i dont know. what will happen? it wont be long and i'll know everything.

Happy happy :D

2007-09-09T23:54:00.000+04:00

i got accepted!! total euphoria!!
yeah well, i kinda am happy not just because i got accepted. because i did after i throw the acceptence in thier faces and thinkin i was better than that.. then, realising i should take that offer that i always wanted :S but after the deadline passed!!

i didnt know my uncles in jeddah would be helpful. but i gotta admit, i luv uncle 9agar and wont forget his help! alsoo euphoria ;) luv u girl =X

to be totally honest; i am also happy kuz i'm watchin my fav show, numb3rs :D

The Kingdom

2007-09-06T14:43:00.008+04:00

i been wondering why this movie didn't come out on April as promised. lol, they even changed the poster. this is something Hollywood should've done a long time ago, bring a reliable person as a consultant on the Arabs/Saudis.

i didn't see the movie yet (obviously) but now, i'm actually more interested to see it.

click here to read the interview with ahmed albrahim.

So.. The foof is back.. (we know already, get over it! :S) Random post

2007-09-03T14:46:00.001+04:00

i cant believe i left this place, this was my safe spot! My so called haven. so yeah, i'm so dumping facebook *hmmmf*

i was really bummed today when i discovered i missed juventus second game back in seria A. Our ART subscription sucks! i heard Jazirah sport cost about 30 riyals a year? i bet Riyad has it *resentful of the idea of tv we need to pay for!*

so yeah, the game had 3 penalties against juve which is soo unheard of, and yet, they won! i cant believe how anyone can downgrade the best soccer team in the world. YES I SAID IN THE WORLD.

so nxt game is on 23rd. by that time i'd probably already forgot :P and i might miss it (yeah, right). i'm so into the italian league again. i so hope this aint the last season for del piero and buffon.. that might actually hurt me :(

today i'm being challenged on this dawre yabani game on PS2 which i always resented. you think i'm gonna win?? i'm playing Brazil that tells you i'm desperate to win, i usually choose Italia or saudia ;)

my new layout is in Itachi's hands, but since his new layout aint that kewl =P i guess this will do for a looong time.. dont get me wrong, i'm still searching for a "phunky" one ;)

you cant believe how much i'm enjoying browsing new blogs.. it's like i just started bloggin :D

oh yeah, we got DSL at last!! Now that's great news or wht ;) please do tell if u know of a website which broadcasts italian league football games.

Whoever has a decent speed internet, check these out, REAL funny:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cbh4G1OyCJo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CyV3e7au6Fc

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hdlvikoNCSs

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=icWhfeVojXk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fIuwrscaP4k

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SAn-LqduGvc

Swer tagged the Fo0f,

2007-08-29T13:50:00.000+04:00

So, this sweet blogger tagged me while i was in my coding dilemma.. i miss these tags.. so thanks Swer ;)

Eight facts about me that no one knows:

1- i got problems sleeping for a long time now, the only 2 solutions i came up with are, to have a full active day so i come back home so tired i go right to sleep, or to watch any kind of series on my laptop till literally fall sleep :P

2- i luv wearing flats, the only thing that makes me buy and wear heels is that i am short, and i look a LOT younger than my real age.

3- i luv my family so much, i had a huge fight with my middle bro, and 2 hrs later we were out shopping, he called me yesterday telling me i should visit him and i was so touched my eyes teared up.

4- i always thought i was getting married this year. (although i was not engaged nor involved with no one). i still believe i will.

5- people always underestimate my power, they think i'm sweet cute lil noufa, little that they know; sweet lil noufa can stand up for herself ;)

6- i miss seeing dad. vacation was heaven, i used to see him everyday. i honestly wish we can work together, maybe i should work on that!

7- i am a freakishly fast typer, it actually scares people in my office.

8- i started out blogging to get a lot of stuff out of my head, and instead i found out a lot about myself through it

Tagging EIGHT ppl! wow, let me remember old bloggers :P Rimyoleta, Fishy, Moods, Itachi, missy, Euphoria, lipstickwahabi, taqwa.. and yeah i know most of them are already tagged :P whtever.

Bleh.. This will do for the mo' -i know it sounded stupid :P

2007-08-26T20:47:00.000+04:00

So yeah, i got a LOT of good ayouts, but no comment code, and adding it screwed up the whole code, so.. Itachi was kind enough to help but .. madre.. he got busy :P

so this will do.. this week was great.. bring more details soon.

my friends today totally bailed on me they went out without me and they told me theyre busy later, so later, they were still out, and i got no ride now :S the bastards :P i'll kick thier asses tomorrow at work!

soooo, wht did i miss?

Fo0f~

Testing..

2007-08-13T23:09:00.001+04:00

Digging the new layout anyone?
i know i need to personlise it more before i say this is it.

I'm back! big time!!

2007-08-11T21:46:00.000+04:00

so, i missed my blog. period!

i'm gonna work on it again, new layout, new chatty box, new bloggers links!! i seen lotsa new bloggers who got it goin on.. so yeah, i'm back!

:D

Bleh.

2007-06-27T19:21:00.000+04:00

Bleh..

This blog has come and gone, went on and off, seen happy times and not so happy times, met through ppl and got to know ppl, whom both i hate, luv, adore, respect and resent.. i NEVER thought blogging would have had an effect on my life. After all. I started blogging as a way to vent :)

As i come back today, after a long breakup with my blog, to complain, i realise i owed my blog too much. i wouldnt have become who i am without it. being good or bad, is not up to me to decided, but i know this much, i like myself much much more now. i've really learned.

so yesterday was crappy, yeah thats all i'm gonna say for the time being. blogging aint safe anymore, and ya'll know wht i mean..

Again, bleh.

Off!

2007-06-06T17:41:00.001+04:00

i'm fed up, being at work and not doing anything sucks!!
i made my mind, i'm bringing my PSP tomorrow!!

10 things I realized lately.

2007-05-24T22:25:00.000+04:00

Worrying or thinking about something that already happened is just a waste of time.
I CAN do anything.
I can not just sit and do NOTHING! (current status @ work)*
I'm a techy geek whether I like it or not! I actually miss my glasses.
I can NOT live properly without working out.
My face tells you everything about me! =\
I NEED a car!
I am very loyal to my bank (I am NOT being sarcastic =\)
I CAN cope with my life with less sleep.
I miss you :$

*I'm actually writing this from work!!

~Over and out.

Ps. To taqo, I am in the process of getting a new layout 8)~

Cleaning Out My Closet

2007-05-21T23:31:00.000+04:00

Wow. as I re-read our convos.. This one last time, before I clean my PC from the dust.. I go through ur words and I remember the pain! The fear! The confusion!! The hurt!! How I put up with all ur stupid lies! With ur crazy ideas! How I made up excuses for you to people, when I didn't believe them but thought I should protect you!

And now, as I read again, I just feel... numb.

~Lol, someone tells me ur gay!! LMAO.

I'm a Granny!!! Well, I Do Feel Like One!!!

2007-05-19T13:53:00.000+04:00

My sisters cat had babies!!
I feel so...... motherly somehow!!

Oh my, she went through labor pain 8( And now baby Tiger is a lil mother!!

Awwww
:3

(Someone should shut me up already!)

New Type of Terrorism.. Hey, I'm Just Quoting Here ;)

2007-05-17T20:24:00.000+04:00

They already did that before to my old TaurusChic blog! What can I say; at least they're keeping themselves busy.

Mixed feeling I got when I saw "Oil Cell" members on TV talk about how they wanted to blast the oil fields city of Ebqiq in Eastern province. I am happy they got caught. But it is scary how they already got busy schedules with lotsa activities.

I had a male relative who used to think that Al Qaida was actually doing Muslims a favor, and making "us" "powerful" and "respected", and this way "amreeka" –USA- will "fear us".
After a close relative died in al washam bombing 2 years ago, he stopped thinking that way.

7asbe allah 3alihom, allah yj3al 7eelhom beenhom.

When I was in school, one of my friend's cell phone was damaged and when she took it to be fixed, they gave her a temp phone to use. This phone had a recording of an above 18 girl to guy convo. She let me and another friend hear it, the other friend told her to tell the girls she actually recorded that to a girl who was not good with her, I asked wth should she claim to that, and she replied to make the girls scared of you, therefore, respect you!!!!

That ass. Her lies got her to lotsa trouble.

Ps. if you think you are creative in Arabic writing, maybe you should check out that site ;)

End of post.

Hans,
You come up to me in my own blog and judge me and give me advise on how to spend my time and what to do, then u act as if ur a real nice person. Honestly, I don’t believe in nice people anymore, so whatever u wana say, say it already, or just shut up ;)

So.. KSU is Stupid..?

2007-05-14T21:17:00.000+04:00

This girl I met got a double major in KSU!!! She actually played the system!! FARTHEADS!

Ps. to Hans, how can I help u :)

Hmmm, I kinda did miss it!

2007-05-13T19:47:00.000+04:00

Well. I am back to being the techy chica..

I am reading VBA books to refresh my mind.
Fixing my aunts printer and making her some high resolution picture files.
Adding additional RAM to my Laptop.
Fixing my bros MP3 player (Heck, I remembered, where the heck is my Ipod!!)
DLing software for my new cell phone (whaaat, this also counts!)
Searching for a new layout. (HELP!)

So, I am working with this really nice guy, who is a very Shiite. He's from Gatif, got a million bros and sisters...etc. But all in all, he's a great dude! Smart, well educated and a team player, I can't get over why ppl assume we don't get along.

I remembered when I was in my old Syrian mob department, I was supposed to check some people to work with us, and I got this CV for this young fellow who's a fresh grad. I showed my supervisor, he looked at the address, read "Gatif" out loud and said, "ma nbeeh!!" -we don't want him- I was like, that's not a reason! He laughed and left me speechless!

I might "hate" Syrians, Egypt, Cults, Clumsy people! But I would never base something like that on not choosing a guy for a job =\

Shit, I feel like I can't write well anymore!
I desperately need to be hitting the GYM!

New weekend, new life, new me..

2007-05-11T16:07:00.000+04:00

So, I started becoming more and more careless.. And this is so opposite of me, I'd like to thank a new friend who made me look at life differently.. Life is so much better and easier this way :)

My grandpa is recovering in the hospital after his open heart op, and my aunt is back to the hospital for more chemo. Rabe arf3 3anhom o 3afeehom.

I Guess.. I Never Hated You

2007-05-06T00:36:00.000+04:00

Speechless..
Lotsa events..
I guess writing aint gonna give you the feeling!

I never judged..Seriousely.. NEVER!

2007-05-04T00:57:00.000+04:00

Yeah well..
I guess respecting the pasts u had is what keeps u going :)

There's a Pirates of the Caribbean PSP Game??!!!

2007-04-28T17:25:00.001+04:00

I'm back. I'm back to ranting. I'm not paying 9$ a year for my domain whom all my family and friends know about anymore!! This is better.

I had a great costume party the other day!! I actually DJed that gig, Stereo Laptop, wiring, and big speakers!! It's was kool!!

I wana list the people who most attracted attention with thier outfits:

Mummy
Devil lady
Bee!!
Goth Angel
Jack Sparrow :P
Hawaiian Chica (I thought Malibu Barbie, but whatever:P)
Hood Nigga
Arabian Dancer (we got 3 of those!)
Japanese lady!!
Hooker
School girl
Miss World :P
Faronic Lady
Lady from the 18th century
Gothic chic
Cult member
Harry Potter!!
FBI Agent

Lotsa other girls wore 50's style dresses, and a couple of my sis friends came wearing jeans :@

Anyhoo, WOW!! I realized hosting parties aint easy! But definitely FUN!!!

So, that's an activity to do in boring Riyadh ;)

Time's Running Up

2007-04-10T20:06:00.000+04:00

Wow, I'm almost 23 and I am OH SO BORED, I look at older people in my family and work and wonder how could they put up with life, it's boring. Or is it just me? I wonder.

So, I been trying out new habits, in which might not be right, but excuse my boredom, I need to be entertained :P Here are the major ones;

Started eating the food I hated, and stopped eating the food I liked.
Getting in touch with REALLY OLD friends!
Watching old Arabic cartoons on my DVD player (3adnan wa lina and robbin hood)
Reading the blogs I hated to read.
Plan a costume party!
Play more on my PSP. I need more games!
If I liked something, go for it right away! (Careful, this might result financial problems)
I'm looking for friends in Thailand, yeah, just for the sake of it!
Really listen when my sisters talk to me about school or co-op.
Facebook is for fun only. The bikini shots have to go down!
Imagin I'm flying off to Hong Kong & checking out hot spots and make reservations =D
Buy a car! Thank God for lease programs ;)
Cutting off TV time. And less internet hours!

Regarding blog world, I'm interviewing 3zayez as soon as I get the time and energy. Need some help from Ash to do some polls about the blogs for the bloggers group. And Taqwa to write the questions~!

Blah

2007-04-05T00:26:00.000+04:00

i'm bored.

I'm Famouse.. Well, Sorta :P

2007-03-29T21:55:00.001+04:00

Arab Summit now in Riyadh, everything is saying welcome, we got flags everywhere, we got more security, we got rush-free-streets!! Ahhh, I'm gonna miss it on my way to work on Saturday!

Well, the other day I got an email from someone asking to post my Flickr pix of Riyadh!! Woohooo, turns out I am a good photographer after all :P

Check "ME" out here :D and here, and here !!

~Ciao

Weekends Over Already!! 8(

2007-03-23T18:57:00.000+04:00

So, I been watching a lot of One Tree Hill lately, I always thought that was a stupid high school kids kinda show, like Dawson's Creek, and that I hated.. Turns out, things are not as they seem. It is actually a good show. It tells you a lot about family, friends, love, and what does it cost you to go on pursuing dreams. I never thought this show would make me think about life. Analyze a lot. It's a nice show, and I am so wanting season three right now.

My favorite One Tree Hill quote at the moment:
"Maybe you're taking a step back as a basketball player, but you're taking 2 steps forward as a man" -Coach Whitey

Ps. I hate Windows Live! Looks too boxy to like!!

Pss. UMEE; I NEED MY ROOM KEYS!! WALA I HATE THIS NO PRIVACY WHAT SO EVER!!!!!

"They Haunt Her by a Whisper.. A Chill Comes Over Me.."

2007-03-15T16:44:00.000+04:00

I grew up to respect all sorts of authority. God, the King, cops, Mom and Dad, grandparents, uncles and aunts, other parents, until a certain age; maids, school teachers, school consular, teachers assistants and the list goes on.

See, when I was little I never question authority, it was correct that they are always right! And I just have to do what they say, take whatever advises they offer, "assuming" they always wanted the best for me. I was a kid, naive, I trusted ANY sort of authority.

Now, as I completed over two years of working in the banking sector in Saudi Arabia. My path crossed a lot* of bad people, in authority places. And being all grown up and getting to know that not everyone will have the best intentions and can't do anything about it, really hurts!

Sometimes, I think, maybe I am what dad says, a spoiled child who can not cope with the pressure of work. And that's why I choose to stay, and not be called a quitter, or I did, for as long as I could, and believe me, two years of putting up with that 10 hrs a day is not an easy job.

Today, I came to what I think I might regret, but knowing that I usually don't regret the stuff I do, gives me strength to go forward. I am stepping up; I am gonna say something about it. And whatever happens later, I got nothing to loose!

May God give me more strength to do this ASAP.

Have a pleasant weekend everyone!

* I usually say millions, as a form of assertion (9ee'3at mobala'3ah), which I came to understand people don't really appreciate. Plus, I don't really know if they use that in the English language.

Hectic..

2007-03-11T23:26:00.000+04:00

Well, I'm about to bable on and on, I warned you, this is soooo not gonna look pretty:

If I had a million dollars, I'd give them all out!
I need to fix my cell phone already!
I got a bad case of Tru Calling addiction!!
I luv the theme song of the OC! I always picture myself driving a convertible by the beach when I hear it!
Everybody got issues, but knowing your issues, and handling them is a lot better than acting as if you're perfect.
I'm in luv with that Superman song *dreamy*
Girls are so much weirder than guys!
I luv music! In another life time I would so be a musician!!
I wana kill two Syrians ho got a Saudi national, whom I work with!!
TV is my best friend, people are too weird for me.
Blogging is the best therapy ever.
I want to kill one Syrian guy I know :@
I can be raciest, but only in stereotyping and making fun.
I'm so feeling weird today! Don't ask me about this post.
One of my friends told me to stop hating the Jews and only hate the Zionist, I couldn't =\
I love kids! Being cute is always a plus :D
I do love my country! What do you mean it’s not perfect? is anything “perfect” in this world!
My annoying co-worker quit =D
I'm actually worried of how hot it was this year in Europe.
I'm learning to stop my Internet addiction.
I met a cute Filipino who if I didn't meet at the hospital would so be my friend!
I need to go to GYM again!
I believe day after day that self education is more important than formal education.
I got a crush on this 34 year old doctor who is totally clueless!
If I didn't hear Simple Plan everyday, I would so think I'm alone..
If Mad World was not written, I would've wrote it myself!!
I want to change my job, just because I'm bored of seeing the same faces everyday!
My annoying co worker quit! (Well, actually she’s been politely kicked out) the important thing is, she left, and people can breath again! I CAN BREATH AGAIN!
I learned to become carefree.
Did I mention that my annoying co-worker quit twice?? :P lol
I should interview a blogger, but I really have no idea who!
Bloggers meet up turned out to be rather cuter than I thought.
I’m not sleeping as much as I used to before, this is something I wanted to achieve.
Food became something disgusting to me for the first time since a long time!
I miss a lot of old friends, and I am having a lot of memories of them lately..
I'm so tired, got a constant headache, and quite frankly I don't think my intra laisak operation was a success =(
I wish that some things that I didn't choose in this life, didn't define me! But it does to me as it does to others!
I am discovering my friends more and more everyday, and some stuff still surprises me!
Sam is in Dubai, I miss her already 8(
I still don't have DSL, but guess what, one of my neighbours got wireless!! :D the signal ain't always strong, but hey, beggers can't be choosers!
My Beach house saving account might get cashed out, near future looks uncertain 8(
I leaned to know how to have fun with as little as I got.
Sali from Star Ac gets on my nerves :S and I do miss Ahmed! After all, he was perfect :P
I owe dad a huge apology 8(
I am worried about mama's health, she doesn't look so hot lately! Allah yostor ya rab
I miss my morning journeys with my sis.
I will become skinny!

Over! I'm tired!!

Untitled

2007-03-07T00:42:00.000+04:00

Is life treating you weird these days, do you feel left out when you see a lot of changes, and your friends are leaving.. Do you feel like you're too young to be living like this?? Or is it the other way around and you think you should be acting more mature!! Does everyone really know everyone and the world is small, or is it just that you look for connections to feel less like outsiders.. Why is everything reminding you of him? Why do you still see him everywhere, even hought it's been so long since it's over!!

I am in a place in my life where I look like I figured it all out, but really, I’m more confused than ever..

Fo0f finally meets the bloggers!!

2007-03-01T23:54:00.000+04:00

So, this was really interesting, I postponed the meet for like 1 hr later, cuz of my mom -DUH- then, I had to change the time again, cuz mom changed hers -ANOTHER DUH-.

Note to self, I won't include myself in moms plans, even if she asks really nicely and try to get me feel guilty about not spending time with her!

Well, starting off, I have to say I'm bummed Noor and Balgees couldn't make it!! Ash too, but at least I had a one on one time with Ash before :D. Black Orchid and Bissa, too.. Hope all u guys gatherings were fun..

So, everyone who came today, it was my first time meet with!! And although there were the odd quite moments, but they were all cool and down to earth and oh, so nice and cute!! I actually told Farah that I didn't used to like her when I first started blogging, but she's just too nice, you can not not like her!! I wanted to prank the girls and after 3 seconds of me talking she confessed, I wanted to kick her in the balls, but sadly she didn't have any :Pp

Dibaz was really quite doing the cool act :Pp and you know what, that girl can pull off being a Brit so easy!! It turned me on so much, I actually asked her to talk in Arabic!!! Heh, and Taqo is such a shy chica, with a real calm voice that I can barely hear!! And guess what, she can pull off being Saudi!! -hey she even learned "meer" today!!-.. Doomy and Bella are just too cute!! They look like sisters!! Uber, well, I thought it would be awkward meeting you, since I never ever had any encounter with you, but she was reaaally a sweeetyyy, she came in such a short time, and she had a hot hair cut ;)

Summing up, I started the day with buying a heeled shoe, and ended it with buying a flat one -Doomy and Bella actually caught me there :$- so that gives you an idea that my day was really GOOD :D

Oh, yeah! And I saw Asala Nasry shopping for make up in Debenhams!! And guess what?? I AM SO FREGGIN' TALL NEXT TO HER!!! :D

Another note to self, check why BJ said she was coming?!

What is There to Have Fun "out" in Riyadh?

2007-02-23T01:34:00.000+04:00

So, weekend, I had my reunion thingy today, mama had her own plans with her peeps. Dad was in bar, and my bros, well u know.. Surprisingly, my sisters had no where to go, and nothing to do!! I felt bad for them!! They really had nothing!!! What did they do, called STC and used ge6af(some kind of points STC gives out when using cell phones), more like abused ge6af, they called all the people they knew to chat!! Lol.

Oh yeah, I had a looot of fun at the reunion, I was amazed by what happened to my friends, I'm really happy for them! We agreed to do this more often =)

Life Goes On..

2007-02-21T15:12:00.000+04:00

Once upon a time, there was a little girl. Living with her pink sweet looking family; mom, dad and sister and bro.. Her smile never left her, she loved to play, hey joy was when daddy gave her some time of his day. Daddy didn't do that a lot. After all he's all grown up, he was asthmatic, and she didn't want to hurt her daddy. He would play with others kids though, something she never understood. Now she grown, she still didn't get "Why wouldn't he play a lil with me."

As she got older, she saw him preach her, constantly telling her what's right and wrong.

Choosing her friends, her schooling, judging her hobbies, and her life!! He grew up to hate her, or so she felt, as he always thought the worst of her. Mommy was never there, she had her own place and own circle of life. She wouldn't care less of what happens inside her house, as long as it looked shiny and lunch was presented on time.

The little girl was no longer little, she got to learn a lot from life, although everyone stereotyped her as the spoiled one, everything she learnt was the hard way. She's all grown up now, should be all independent. But found herself in a place where she didn't feel she belonged, she always had a lot to accomplish in her mind, she always saw herself going places, she wanted a lot in life which she slowly but fiercely, realised she can't have.

Now, a young woman, she thinks, why bother dream, plan, or care, when my destiny is always under someone's hands. Whenever she wanted something, the irony of her reality hits her, telling her, although it is your life, but this is not your decision to make!

She still keeps walking, wipes her tears, and puts on her usual smile. Trying to go on.. Not really wanting to, but for the sake of her faith, for the love she has for her family, not knowing what she wants in life anymore, she still.. Goes on.

I'm Back, I'm Hyper :P and I am Better!!

2007-02-19T00:44:00.000+04:00

Well.. I am back, Bahrain was.. Hmmm, well you know Bahrain, a couple of malls, sheesha cafes, movies, booze :P nothing special.. As always, just another family vacation~!

I seen a guy shitting by the highway, my baby bro and baby sis Ipods were stolen! I was moving around like a Vegas dealer, a deck of cards and an envelope filled with 100 Riyal bills totalling 5 grand!! WHAT?? You know my wallet and credit cards were stolen 3 weeks ago 8(

I was thinking on the long way back, what's the deal with girl friends?? Cant there be a real girl friend anymore?? Was there a9lan!! Why do people have to stereotype girls to be back stabbers and two faced liars.. Is it true cuz we ALL are!!! That's too bad, I hope it ain't true.. But I can see where all that is coming from more and more everyday!!

Still trying to get another job, I hate myself for being too picky and then,realising I need to move already!! Even if I didn't like the job, or the benefits were not as flashy as it should be.. I hate this feeling I'm getting lately, wanting to drop work, go back to uni.. live off mom and dad.. And just be a kid again 8(

Guess my glass looks half empty today..

Happy Valentines..

2007-02-14T18:54:00.000+04:00

I am sick..

Home..

Hating my self!

I can't talk properly..

I can't walk properly..

And I cannot even BREATH properly!!

I'm sending the driver now to get my medications

(WHAT? I didn't think I was really sick till I woke up today!!)

What a happy valentines this turned out to be!

Pray for my health people, as I feel like I'm dying 8(

Weekends Weekends..

2007-02-09T14:52:00.000+04:00

So.. My Ipod mini is officially full now, I need to take some real thought in selecting the music I'll keep and the music I'll delete.. I am not ready to buy a new Ipod yet..

Yesterday I did not go out anywhere.. I was in pain, and someone was supposed to be there for me!! You always say I am your best friend, but you sure ain't mine..

So, I been in my lovely room for what seems like forever this weekend, as my lovely family made me casa into everyones su casa, I couldn't be free in my own home. I am usually an outgoing person and can mingle with anyone, but yesterday, I didn't want to see anyone, and our lovely guest slept over. (I don't know when exactly, the house was up all night).

My plan was to go to work this weekend too, but I didn't wake up! 8( I'll just go on Sat a tad early so I finish up what I got to finish.. Nothing productive ever happens on Sat, everyone else is off! I am proposing a new weekend for our department in the weekly meet. Hope it all goes well.

~Enjoy ur weekends everyone ;)

My Name is Fo0f and I am Suspicious-ic.

2007-02-04T20:57:00.000+04:00

OK. This is gonna be weird, -For me, not for you!!- Being a suspicious person, I always thought I had a good thing going on for me here. As it is never bad to be suspicious, it makes you think about the situation, and analyze it and always gets you a logical explanation given the variables you have. Or at least that's what I thought for my last 22 years.

My suspicious behavior always got me to solve a lot of problems and always made me think wisely before I con somebody - as a prank of course!! Or parents, dauh!- I always enjoyed it. I don't say it was always right but I don't go on accusing people and that's what kept me on the safe side always, you are a liar, and I know, but you don't know I know. And we can both co exist, me knowing how your mind thinks, and you thinking I'm too dumb to get what your trying to pull.

So the other day at work, I been getting the weirdest calls, someone's been calling me and hanging up, and I'm used to that from my annoying co worker, she wants to know if I'm there, or she just wants to annoy me. The stupid thing is, I can hear her punching my numbers, and hanging up!! We're two cubicles away for God's sake!!!

So this was going on for a while, then my cell phone, missed calls from a “sawa” number. I was like OK. What does she want to do now =\ and I was in the middle of a discussion with a colleague and it did annoy me!! So I told him, please call this number!! I wanted to bust her and make her feel stupid, so he called. And it was the breakfast I ordered for the department, the guy bringing it was lost!!! TALK ABOUT A FLUSHED FO0F FACE!!

Good thing I didn't tell my colleague about my so-bright-conclusion!!! I would've been so embarrassed!!

~Fo0f, over and out.

I'm Happy :D well, at least before Umee called!! Jk ;)

2007-01-30T21:30:00.000+04:00

I CAN BLOG!!!
At last a google account!! Damn, these guys are getting richer everyday!!

Today started out like any other winter in Riyadh working day. Hardly can wake up, brush my teeth with my eyes shut and try to leave home early to reach work on time.

But today, I have heard this "AMAZING" news.. and I'm high all day :D it's impossible to think this could still make me happy but it did, what kills me is, it's confidential!! I wanted to put on a Circular!! Almohm I'm HAPPY :D

Oh, yeah, and I got a brand new cubicle!! And planning to get a sound system for my room (maybe these too, got something to do with my happiness, just maybe)

So anyways, as "certain" ex-bloggers - yeah, you know urselves =P- enjoy facebook too much.. I look back and think.. What would I miss if I left too..

I remember first blog I had, on multiply.. Then Alyana told me about her blog, and then Nora.. and I was like wow, that has a million more options, and I joined, I didn't tell either of them, cuz I wanted to blog for me.. But they found out cuz the Saudi blogger community was too small then, I miss their blogs, I miss lotsa people who used to blog..

Only 3 of my friends know about my blog. I don't really want people to know.. And sometimes I think more and more people know.. But did that make me change my mind about having a blog.. I always liked to write down my feelings, papers, sms, email.. I used to -and might still do- have a problem in speaking about my feelings.. When I'm hurt, I cry. When I feel misjudged, I cry.. When I'm accused of something I didn't do, I cry!!!! I can be my own ball of emotional trauma!! And I luv my own time alone, my Fo0f-time..

Sometimes you call, I hear the phone, I'm not really busy with anything, but I choose not to pick up, sometimes I agree to a meet and cancel and make up a reason, just because I felt chocked.. Wanted some air, needed my own time. Or needed a break from you.. I never judged people's behaviour which I don't approve of.. So I think they should cut me some slack and let me be, without being judged, or blamed..

So anyways, this writing thing have always helped me through out the years, it's always been a kind of therapy that I have made out to solve my own problems.. I am in love with it now, I can't leave it, I owe it too much.. And I don't thin I can live with out it, I don't want to be a great writer.. I just want to "be".. And write.. And continue to write.. For me =)

Week-ends not so Exciting Anymore?

2007-01-25T02:36:00.001+04:00

I just can't get over the fact that my in tray has too much paper, I got a million pending cases that need follow ups and I didn't do my quarterly report yet!! What's wrong with me!! I really can't get over leaving work like this.. I seriously want to go to work tomorrow!!

~LOL, so I hear facebook is the new blogspot ;)

Fo0f Kids .. :3

2007-01-22T23:02:00.000+04:00

It's a girls year!! All the babies are cuttttee girls this year!!

My friend is about to have a baby, when she knew it was a girl, she started panicking to think of a name.. I didn't know it was this hard, till I tried to help her.. I never even thought of what would I name my own kids!! I want my kids to have cute names.. But when a cute name is named everyone steals it!! Like Rand!! Everyone's a Rand now!! Or Leen/Layan!! And I so wanted a baby Talal but my cousin names her baby Talal so now I need new ideas!!

I was at Rima'z blog -where I can not comment- and read this recent post also about having babies and naming them.. I liked Jana... But obviously it's gonna be a lot, and I don't want to steal it from Rima =P

So.. As you can see, I been thinking of my own babies names.. I got some prospective now.. But guess what, I am afraid to share them with people now, so they won't use em before I do!!

Call me selfish.. It's a tough world! And do share if you got cute names in mind :P

Note(s) to Self

2007-01-20T01:30:00.000+04:00

I had a nice weekend.. I lost my wallet!! I am IDless and Cardless!! You feel like you lost yourself for a while, but now I cancelled my cards I'm ok, it's time to buy a new wallet anyways!! -LOL, moi's doing a great job taking it easy, don't ya think ;)-

I saw friends, family.. I went out and partied, fought with mama (something odd if it didn't happen).. Met someone really sweet and interesting.. I got some notes, pls this is for my documentation.. If you don't like it then =P

Learn how to dance in a mini skirt! -it's surprisingly hard!-
Be always ready for change.
Don't take my baby sis to any of my gatherings!!
Don't call someone who smsed just cuz I lost their number and wana know who they are :$

that's it for now.. Weekend over, back to work.. I'll watch some more One Tree Hill.. Then off to bed..

I Find It Hard To Say (Rebel)

2007-01-16T19:31:00.000+04:00

Ok, yeah, alright...

I find it hard to say, that everything is alright
Don't look at me that way, like everything is alright
Cuz my own eyes can see, through all your false pretenses
But what you fail to see, is all the consequences
You think our lives are cheap, and easy to be wasted
As history repeats, so foul you can taste it
And while the people sleep, too comfortable to face it
His life so incomplete, and nothing can replace it
Fret not thyself I say, against these laws of man
Cuz like the Bible says, His blood is on their hands
And what I gotta say, and what I gotta say, is rebel
While today is still today, choose well
And what I gotta say, is rebel, it can't go down this way
Choose well, choose well, choose well......choose well, choose well, choose well
And while the people sleep, too comfortable to face it
Your lives are so incomplete, and nothing, and no one, can replace it
No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no
And what I gotta say, and what I gotta say
And what I gotta say, and what I gotta say
And what I gotta say, and what I gotta say
And what I gotta say, and what I gotta sayIs rebel... rebel, rebel, rebel, rebel, rebel, rebel
Rebel, rebel, rebel, rebel, rebel
Repent, the day is far too spent, rebel... rebel!
Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up...
Wake up and rebel
We must destroy in order to rebuild
Wake up, you might as well
Oh are you... oh are you satisfied
Oh are you satisfied
Rebel... ohhh rebel
Why don't you rebel, why don't you rebel?
Why don't you rebel?
I'm fading myself down now...

Bad Day!

2007-01-15T23:25:00.000+04:00

15 Jan 07'

bad day.. Weird day.. The problem is, it will effect other days.. God, please, get me justice! And get the hypocrite a hell on earth! Amen

I got a huge headache!!! Off..

MY New Years Resolutions

2007-01-11T18:54:00.000+04:00

I do have new years resolutions after all. I hope I can remember them, I wana post 'em here so I can keep track.. They were 8~9 I guess..

To loosen up, not take a lot of stuff seriously
Become less sensitive
Reach that certain weight I want
Save a certain amount of money
Be honest about my feelings
If a thing takes only one minute to do, do it right away
Complete my higher education
Try to convince my parents that they worry too much
Say I luv you, more often

Okay I cant remember if this is it, or is something missing, if I do remember, I'll update and pin this post somewhere..

~Updated, thanks Umeee ;)

As Always.. I've Got a Lot to Say..

2007-01-11T12:42:00.000+04:00

Helooooo!!

First off, I'd like to say, if you missed me, blame blogger (and it's stupid upgrades!!), if not; blame yourselves =P

I was watching this special about this girl who got fired, cuz her employer found out about her blog!!!! Then, the very next day, I see my own blog being circulated in the internal employees emails! So, I got pretty crept out.. It's not like I tell Company secrets, but still, the attention made me unfomfy.. Then again it's my blog, and I will keep on saying what I want in it.

It's been over a month on my op, and I think that the doctor will make me go again, I still can't see clearly.. I had a dream about it, a real good looking doctor was operating.. I have to remember..

I am watching One Tree Hill lately, and Paden is really getting on my nerves.. I never met someone like that, but if I did, I might go ahead and kill her =\, Lucas on the other hand, is too good!! (at least so far) I mean, where I come from, kids who are not so fortunate to have good schooling and family bonds, turn out to be the worst..

Weekend, a friend I used to like woke me up, she was asking me why I dont call her and meet her no more, @10 IN THE MORNING!! AND CLEARLY SHE WAS TALKING TO ME WHILE SLEEPING!!! I didnt want to hurt her feelings by saying something stupid cuz of the sleep effect.. So I told her I'd call her back when I wake up..

This girl, told me something 3 weeks ago, that made me think so much less of her, I am trying not to judge, but lets say her view on some things made me think less of her and not like her.. I hate people who dont think like me.. I am too found with the way I think.. I know I aint perfect, but at least I'd like to be around the people who "think" not look, like me..

2007

2007-01-04T17:41:00.000+04:00

Just when I thought this year is gonna be hard to be a good year for me, it started out with something I never thought would happen! Hope it continues at this pace!
Ps. I have to fix my old cell or get a new one, ASAP!

How Was ur Break?

2007-01-01T21:35:00.000+04:00

Right now, I feel like meeting friends. And my family feels like seeing relatives, and since I am not the "decision maker" in this house, I had to put up with what they wanted to do, and accept that I am not going out, just because going out to meet friends while they meet relatives is a big taboo -at least in their heads- I don't want to even get started on how people think in my family. I don't say I think perfectly, nor that I am a family person, I see my grandparents, aunts and uncles once a month at least. And I think that is more than enough for someone who works 10 hrs a day, 5 days a week and has lotsa friends she rarely sees.

I don't know why I don't feel as bummed as before, I think it has to do with a convo I had yesterday with a friend (she was online, I didn’t see her!) She told me I was too sensitive and that made some people afraid of getting close to me, and that I get hurt easily. I think that got me thinking, of course after I rained her with her insecurities as pay back =P don’t worry, we love each other.

I discovered a new thing about me - it is amusing that you still "learn" things about yourself-. A convo like the one I had with my friend, really sinks in, gets me deep. See I take what people say most of the time seriously, yesterday, it did me a lot of good. And I am grateful to her.

On another note, Abdul from work sent me a happy new year SMS!! That guy hates me!! Lol, what's happening to this world??! Plus, I thought he was kinda.. Mutawa'a? =P lol, guess looks (and behaviour) are deceiving..

I don't have new year resolutions, it's the same old 22nd birthday wishes, I just thought, now I got 4 months only to get them all done, so I better step up on those goals, may God help me, and bless the ones I luv. Amen

~Fo0f

Ace Tag..Hay2ah Petition.. And Karma..

2006-12-16T22:54:00.000+04:00

Ace thought I had nothing to write about -she was right!-, so decided to help me out and tag me.. Thanks girl ;)

1.- If I were a fruit I'd be... Strawberry
2.- If I were a colour I'd be... Green
3.- If I were an animal I'd be... Horse
4.- If I were a domestic appliance I'd be... An International Plug Adapter!
5.- If I were a book I'd be... A History book probably about the French revolution!
6.- If I were a clothing item I'd be... A scarf
7.- If I were a jewel / stone I'd be... Amber
8.- If I were an object I'd be... The leaning tower of Pisa
9.- If I were a car I'd be... A Red/Yellow mini cooper
10.- If I were an element I'd be... Air
11.- If I were a tree I'd be... A Bonsai Tree
12.- If I were a drink I'd be... Coke

13.- If I were an ice cream flavor I'd be... Pralines and cream
14.- If I were a person I'd be... Nate Berkus
15.- If I were a planet I'd be... The Sun!
16.- If I were an insect I'd be... A Bee
17.- If I were a form of public transport I'd be... A chopper
18.- If I were a song I'd be... I Believe I can Fly - R Kelly
19.- If I were a movie I'd be... The Wedding Singer!
20.- If I were a season I'd be... Summer
21.- If I were a flower I'd be... A Rose
22.- If I were a job I'd be... A Graphic Designer!
23.- If I were a cartoon I'd be... Kagemaro Igano =D
24.- If I were a place I'd be... Tokyo
25.- If I were a gift I'd be... Money =P
26.- If I were a memory I'd be... My winter 2003 vacation in Lebanon
27.- If I were a city I'd be... San Francisco
28.- If I were a sense I'd be... Smell
29.- If I were a game I'd be... Monopoly
30.- If I were a candy I'd be... I am not a big candy fan, but I like this one kind.. When I remember the name I'll post it, it's wrapped in red and it's colored like M&Ms.. Help?
31.- If I were a time of the day I'd be... Fajr, luv the morning time
32.- If I were an invention I'd be... A computer
33.- If I were a body-part I'd be... Legs
34.- If I were a country I'd be... Canada
35.- If I were a flavor I'd be... BBQ ;)
36.- If I were a sport I'd be... Skating
37.- If I were a smell I'd be... Vanilla
38.- If I were a subject I'd be... Physics!!
39.- If I were a flag I'd be... Italy =D luv the colors
40.- If I were a building I'd be.... Umm.. Didn't I answer this one??
41.- If I were a month I'd be... April
42.- If I were a perfume I'd be... Be delicious by Donna Karan
43.- If I were a gummy candy I'd be... I rather be choco
44.- No question ... ?? No answer LOL
45.- If I were a toy I'd be... A PSP 8)
46.- If I were a textile / fabric I'd be... Fur?
47.- If I were a shape I'd be... A Triangle
48.- If I were an answer I'd be... Yes
49.- If I were a store I'd be... Saks Fifth Avenue =D
50.- If I were a word I'd be... Passion

I would like to tag Fishy so she'd find something to blog about, also Lamya so she can end her story =P, Euphoria, so she can write a new post at last.. Bored, well because he's bored!! And Raheel before he starts another post about another 10 things we dont know about him..

I would like to bring to your attention that there is a letter to King Abdullah "Vote to Remove most of 'Alhe2a' Authority". Please put this link in your next blog or so and sign with us all ,, There are 18,000,000 Saudi and the ppl who signed until now only 97 !! (ME)
http://www.petitiononline.com/haia/

I been thinking alot lately, to the extent of not posting any more.. I am packing as I am going to the UAE later today, and I'm thinking of taking my rollerblades out of the cabinets and playing with them daily there, I always complain I got no where to play here, but I always forget to bring them when I travel, this time, I'm hitting the skate parks! Wish me luck!!

Have a nice weekend people..

Dreams..Work..Boredom >> Shopping!!

2006-12-13T14:48:00.000+04:00

Last night I had a dream that I am steaming hot.. Getting sick.. I woke up sweating, and didn't go to work.. Went back to bed after I called work.. Turns out a lot are sick, not only me.

By noon I went to watch some TV, RR rerun was on, she was having a surprise B'day party for this guy who's going to Afghanistan, and brought him Edward McCain to sing live!! It was emotional, LOL, well at least I thought so..

It's still noon, and I am bored, maybe I'll just go to work for the rest of the day =\ NOT!! I'm off to mamlakah =P

Oh.. Did I say "Yay weekend"?? Lol, wll I need to learn some more phrases, this is SO wearing out!!

"You're Always Like That!!" Boohoo!

2006-12-12T21:15:00.000+04:00

Listening to: Freak Out, yeah by Avril!

Today was the last day of my diet, I was supposed to go out with my friends to Cafe du Paris for dinner.. One of my friends' moms is my moms friend, they decided to go vist my sick aunt allah yshfeeha today, and also decided that we go with them.. I didnt mind.. Called and postponed our dinner reservations. Came home tired, didnt talk to no one, had a bite, went to watch some TV, then went up to shower, at that time mom was coming down the stairs fully dressed, she said what am I doing? I said I'm going to shower.. So she says take ur time, dear.. I wont be out for another hour.. Okaaay.. I shower, dress up, tell my sister what I thought of what she wore =P call my friend, she ignores my call!!! Then go down looking for my orange and beige Pumas.. I hear mama saying she's waiting for her cousin!! I go up, and decided I don’t want to go.. I just fet like tired, sleepy, want my space! And mama now hates me =\ what I do? I didn’t ask you to wait up, u were waiting for YOUR cousin!! And my sister pinches in =\ faj2ah wth!! Just cuz she's going without me now!! I don't have to be with you, you got your own life!! Damn.. I feel like I got no personal space anymore.. I had plans that day and they ruined it, and I am the one to blame!! In case you were wondering.. Yeah, I am angry!

This Post Contains Multiple Messages to Various People

2006-12-10T00:11:00.000+04:00

I totally believe in Karma, I hope more people do, for the sake of themselves =)

If you don't think you should love your friend, you're not a friend at all.

Today, I realized too much in my life is happening on purpose, it's really happening in a sequence, and it makes me feel that it's so fated!! Rabe katb it happens!!! I hope all goes well *crossingfingers*

People are asses, don't try to please them.

Espanol in Manahel starts second week of January, whoever wants to enroll, there is still time ;)

I reached peace with myself in work, I no longer despise nor hate who mistreated me, I will give as much as I can, for as long as I stay.

Your life is what you make of it, so stop complaining.

No more shyness, I am calling Kholood back!!! She said she will call me herself, but you know what Kholood, I'm the one who needs you, or your place for that matter, SO I'M CALLING YOU *lubing outlandish*

Some of the weirdest people I met, are the ones who are now closest to my heart.

I hate misunderstandings, I lost a real close friend because of one, and I am guessing it will never be the same again, from my friends part at least, I just wanted to say, I miss you, and you will always be in my heart, close or far, whatever u choose, I'll always cherish you.

I miss Sam, all the time.. I feel like it's sad what life did to us, how ur dad controlled us, and what this country made of us.

I don't like the idea of just adding up people to my msn.

I miss you little brother, I think you're the only one in this family that TRULY understand me, even Wendy Lee doesn't.

I thought a lot of bloggers were weird, but maybe it's me who's really weird, but I think my weirdness is not freaky! It's cute =P

When I see something nice and say I want to buy it, doesn't mean that I really am planning to!! It just means I think it's good enough, if I really wanted to buy something I'd go for it without saying it out loud ;)

I am on a diet, hope it all goes well, I am in lub with the skinny jeans and if I don't loose 'em hips I wont get one!!

Oh, yeah, since I am giving random messages; GET A LIFE!!

~P.S. If you think I am talking to you then I am talking to you!!

On Life..

2006-12-03T23:13:00.000+04:00

So life has not been any exciting to me lately.. Nothing! Nada!! I'm not used to this, I got a plan, I work, I might complete my education while I work, of course being in this country I'm staying with my folks till I die, or move to another guys place and let him have power over my life (ya sater).. Heh.. Well, lets say this got me thinking..

When I was in school I always looked up to the next stage as a "cool" phase. Like when I was in 3rd Grade I thought the 4th graders were cool!! I wanted to be a 4th grader!! When I was a 6th grader I thought Jr. High was cool, and couldn't wait to make it there, when I was in Jr. High I thought College was cool!! When I finished that, I thought having a job would be cool.. Now, I'm stuck! Should I really be looking up to retirement!! I mean, I'm 22, I'm bored!!!!! Boy, do I need help..

This was so random, don't judge me! And yeah this color is PINK, get over it guys =\

It's Raining in Riyooo =D

2006-11-26T17:42:00.000+04:00

Ok, so let's throw on some fresh clothing, I been sleeping in these jeans and sleeveless black shirt for far too long, and I gotta go out.. Wait, it's cold, Ok pink and grey stripped long sleeved shirt, where's that jeans?? The washed out one!! Arrgghhh I can see all my jeans trousers, but NOT THAT one.. Heck, I'm not changing the shirt, I am FINDING the pants!!!!!!!! THERE!! In the laundry basket, whao.. Now I can breath again *wiping sweat off forehead*

Now, what shoes should I wear =S

I Don't Even Have a "title" This Time.

2006-11-24T20:46:00.000+04:00

My baby sister just bought herself 2 new guitars, and she's been practicing all day!! Weirdly enough, I am not annoyed!! heh.. It's interesting to see my baby sis having such interest, my younger sister never did, she always copied me, I didn't complain, till I grew up and saw her getting jealous of my friends :S She's older and a lil bit wiser now =P Well, It's been more than one year of me blogging, I didn't reach a 100 posts yet, but I feel like I did, and though, I remember every post, I enjoy reading every post! Is that sick?! I always liked my own writings, although my writings were usually about what happens around me, what I think and feel about it, not stories, poems, or articles of any kind. When I first started I was pissed at my sister, she told me that I complained about work to her too much. It's nothing but normal since my life is my job, and I spent an awful lot of time there, and I do look at my job as my future, she's working now, and doing it to me, lol. So anyways, I thought enough said, if I got to complain, I'll write about it! I started out ok, then thought what if my colleagues read this! A couple are annoying, but that don't mean I want to hurt their feelings. Only one is really crazy and I already told her so it's no biggy. But now, when I look at my blog, I realize I couldn't even do that, do what I wanted to do with it, and I don't know if it means I got over that or not. Another thing, I tend to like my privacy, I enjoy my Fo0f time alone, and my best friend just graduated, and now wants to work in "banke el me3fen" as she calls it =\ I was like, "Ok, m3fn and u want to work in it leeh??" "Oh, I'm excited to be with you", she says, so I wish her the best and help her all I can, a couple of weeks later she gets accepted and will join shortly, and I can't help but feel like my personal place is being invaded, I don't know why I am not liking the idea. I truly love her, but she could've worked somewhere else, I really don't like to be unprofessional at work, and I never wanted to sound childish to her, but really, it's like when ur mom shows ur new friends ur naked baby pictures, that is so her, she likes to do that, all the time, to everyone, even new people we just met, that's her way of looking sweet, telling people about ur embarrassing stuff, knowing I don't do that, and she will eventually "look" better. I never mind, cuz normally, it's in front of her friends or family who know how she is. But infront of other people, like my folks, or my friends, she's a tad embarrassing, although they know everything about me, she always can make things sound worse, or more embarrassing =\ And I am in a bit of a battled lately, thinking; would it be "3eeb" to go on to her and tell her, about the whole behavior that bugs me, -not about her joining where I work-, we are very close. But I really don't want her to get it wrong or hurt her feelings. I was supposed to go to her place today, I didn't go cuz of this thinking dilemma which I am hating. Off, a wise girl once told me, don't befriends girls, girls are weird.. I am so with her in that right now!!!

Once I Was Blind, and Now I See =D

2006-11-20T19:05:00.000+04:00

I did it!! Yeah, I can't believe I was crying my eyes out for this and now 4 hrs later I am online!! Oh, yeah, I hate the dropes!! I got to see my doctor in 2 and a half hrs. Hope this works out and I dont need another op =(

Super sorry Euphoria, I didnt have time till now =$

Planning Stuff Never Meant They WILL Work Out!!

2006-11-17T01:27:00.000+04:00

I couldn't sleep last night, when I at last slept -after crying for no reason- I woke up @ 9 after the worst set of night mares. I was supposed to be happy I'm getting this over with!! Saying good-bye to my glasses and lenses was a dream since I first wore em when I was in 10th grade! I took a shower and called my friends who are going with me, dad was supposed to come but he was in Abu Dhabi, so only mom came, and guess what.. After all of that, my two friends did it, and I came back to nurse them around for the whole day just because I was long-sighted and that was a puzzle enough for them to put a drop that tranquilizes my inner eye muscles so they can tell what's really going on with my eyes, and they can't do the op until the effect wears off, which is 3 days later!! My op is scheduled now on Monday inshallah, I am hoping for the best, and dad will be coming and my friends WILL come over to nurse me!! Allah yustor, and ynje7 all our operations ya rab..

So, I think I can check my email for a couple of more days. I should be happy, shouldn't I??

-Bummed Fo0f!

Fishy and Wahabyalipstick Asked 4 This...

2006-11-08T20:25:00.000+04:00

Hmmphhh I got no comment..

Nobody Said Saudi is Perfect. But Quite Frankly, No Where Else is!

2006-11-06T23:38:00.000+04:00

This post was influenced a long time ago by this post.

A friend of mine got engaged 3 months ago, it was rather quick, she liked the guy, and her family liked his family. It was all going on good, and they wanted to get married ASAP.

I was happy for her, she's a year older than I, still young, but divorced before marriage -something we do here in Saudi is called "Melkah", which confirms the marriage formalities, but your not married till the party is done-.

Honestly; I didn't ask her who he was, I only knew his first name, and that he's not "Najdi", meaning he's not from the Central Area in Saudi. I couldn't care less as long as she was happy.

Her marriage was scheduled on the first Friday after Eid just before school started. And being in situation she chose not invite no one till a week before the date of the marriage party.

On Thursday, I got the invitation. I was kinda shocked it was tomorrow, I thought she'd give me more time to get ready and all =P but whatever, it's her call, and being her friend who had nothing else to do on that sunless day, I had to go =)

Thursday night, I get a call from her mom telling me the girls wedding is off, I asked when are you postponing it to? And she tells me it's not being postponed, it's cancelled! I ask why, and she tells me; they were not "originals"! (ma kano a9eeleen) I said; didn't you know that before?? And she said no, they told us they were, and their family wasn't known and we didn't think they would lie regarding such things, but today when we sent the invitations we got many calls from the family seniors saying they don't approve and they called the "Amara" to make sure of the family origins, and they informed them that they are not!! And may God reward my doughter and let us bear us they don't want to divorce her and we're going to the Judge for that "O allah y5lef 3ala bente bele a7san o y3eena 3al ma7akm la2no el rijal ma yebe y6l8!" I told her I am sorry and called my friend, who was crying telling me, I feel like I don't have a family!

You see I always thought that non originals were better people in accepting a lot of things that originals automaticlly label as wrong and taboo out of tradition more than not approved by Islam"7aram". I thought they lived a carefree life, with no worries. But when I told dad my friends' story, and asked him why would they lie! It's not like they can't find someone that matches them, he told me they wanted to upgrade themselves!!! And that made me think that they could be more superficial than I thought!!

I don't care that much about family, in marriage, but I respect my dads wishes and would never marry someone he wouldnt approve of. But I always thought no one would put them selves in such a bad situation knowing that people would hesitate in accepting them!!

My friend now is divorced, twice, and that is never good in this country! -See OT, it's not just family names and money; you can add that to your list!

Mama America

2006-10-30T23:02:00.000+04:00

So I finally saw Season 3 of Lost, 3rd episode got me to know something new; picking up hitch hickers is a against the law in the United States of America!!!! Whoa, so much for the whole "land of the free" concept!

On a further note; I luved season 3, it has a quicker pace, you're always tensed and expecting something!

Oh, yeah, and why don't the polar bears just go fishing. Dude!

LOL

It's No Secret; You Annoy Me!

2006-10-28T22:43:00.000+04:00

I can't stand your voice, your face, your stupid comments and actions, your endless tries to befriend me, or to get the latest buzz from me.. I know your kind, and I despise you, and knowing you work here with me, and I have to see you daily, is really annoying me, yeah, sorry, but at least I am honest!! And if you didn't get that when I first said it that proves you're more stupid than I thought you were! I want to leave because of you, yes, I am willing to, you're not going anywhere, so it's up to me now to move to a better place, to rub off better people.. But you know what; as bad as you are, you do the most damage!! I never thought a clueless person like you, would ever annoy me this much!

So, I found this great site that understands me =D it sends anonymous hatred mail, even has great suggestions if you can't write down your own!!

Lets see, shall I send her this:

"Do you know how unseemly you appear when you stand at the boss' desk, chatting him up for two hours after your shift ends? Also, your cackling at every one of his comments, and that rip-snort animal noise you make are obnoxious! How old are you, twelve? Do you actually think he is going to help you advance your career by your sucking up, gossiping and snorting at everything he says? Grow up!"

Or this;

"Why must you continually use your outside voice in our cubicle environment? Don't you realize that entire office can hear your pointless conversations with all your visitors. Who cares about your gripes on how work should be done!!! We work on boring pensions and benefits. Deal with it!!! Have you ever thought of being a Public Address Announcer at a Nascar event??? Your loudmouth could easily be heard over all the roaring engines without the use of speakers!!!!"

Or this: -lovin the site!-

"Please refrain from voicing your emotions as grunts and other assorted noises. The English language exists for a reason, to be used. If I wanted to listen to animal noises I would go to a zoo."

Nyahaha wala fallah if I did, problem is; she'd know it's me! Or is is a7san if she did?? =D`

PS. You can do it too, anonymously, I know you want to ;)

Mood Swing? I Think Not :$

2006-10-21T23:42:00.000+04:00

I am not a moody person, at least I don't think I am. I mean a "moody" person is a person who has mood swings for no reason, right?? I have reasons!!

Okay, I can't think of a post, and that's killing me, writing was easy then, and fun!! Eid is a day away, which sucks since my eid plans are goind to our town, and meeting distant relatives I haven't seen in a real long time -we don't really miss each other, don't worry, we're not even supposed to-. Thing is, we live and lead different lives, we're not even that close, and all we do is mere formality, I wont lie to you, when I go I have fun, we all do, it's a big gathering if you don't have fun you're sick.. It's the best place, and a fun time. It's just that it lacks personal space, you are everybody's business there.. I am packing my laptop, some movies, FRIENDS DVDs, Grey's Anatomy, a book (Cents and Senibility) and a manga (Kingdom Hearts *thanks sis*).. I still don't know what to wear on Eid, I so wanted a Jalabyah! I never did the Jalabyah thing! I'm doing it this year if I get time to buy one tomorrow.

We're hitting the road tomorrow noon, wish me luck and fun everyone.. Enjoy your Eid celebrations and take care.. Oh yeah, did I say I got a raise at wor!! Cuz I did =D

See, I am not moody, it's just what happens around me affect me, and I do speak up, unlike some people..

UPDATE:

ok, I was gonna write a whole I am back post, but blogger gave up on me and lost it, I am not writing all of that again!!! Anyhoos I am back for real =P in ur face stupid hacker!!

Thanks Euphoria for being the first to tell me about this -although then I couldnt do anything about it-, Ahmed for the post, Ash and Rio for the investigitaion ;) and 7amoudi for your ususal help ;)

3eed was messy, crowded and had lotsa dust and sick kids in case u were wondering! 3eedkom mobarak everyone!! Hope u had a pleasent one!!

Just Another Day..

2006-10-13T22:17:00.000+04:00

~I saw my aunt yesterday, I am happy I did, I was kinda avoiding seeing her cuz it was too emotional for me to deal with, but she looked "not bad" thank God. I hope she keeps her strength and fights this through. I made a promise to myself today, I will visit her more often!

~A new Abaya is coming out tomorrow, I hope it doesn't look bad, I kinda asked for a lot to be put in it *crossing fingers*

~I got a slight fever all last week, I'll live, it was just a good excuse for me to skip work.

Black Orchid and -OT- Tagged me (I think =P);

Last birthday? September 23rd =\
Last meal? Soup (my late fatoor)
Last spending splurge? My new Abaya!
Last time you cried? Watching Tru Calling Season 2 the episode with the girl that got leukemia
Last career? My current one.. (I hope I can call it last soon)
Last website visited? My MSN Hotmails Mailbox
Last person you spoke to? Dad
Last song you listened to? lol, Money, Flying Lizards :$
Last book you read? The Five Lessons a Millionaire Taught Me About Life and Wealth by Richard Paul Evans
Last TV show watched? 9a7ebat al ematyaz
Last person you IM'd? Memo
Last word you said? "OK" =S

Updates:

~Euphoria has a new post!

~Riyo Bloggers meet up by Se3loah.

~I am going to work tomorrow!

~I did this post just because I thought I should post something already.

~Read about today, Friday the 13th!!! =P`

And "They" Say; "I" Got Problems!

2006-10-06T23:37:00.000+04:00

So, once upon a time the internet in Saudi got more popular with the youth when it interduced Hi5, a while later there was a lot of similer sites such as zorpia, multiply, bingbox, and recently tagged.

I for one enjoyed hi5, it had a friendly look, and covered everything, no one screwed with the colors or the background. It was readable, and you can tell who's who easily. Eventually, it got blocked =P

My brother sent me a bingbox invatation a while back and I accepted and sent to my contacts later and forgot about it. And yesterday I decided to check my junkmail folder and it was all bingbox! So I went to check it out and found out people left me the weirdest messages.

HONESTLY; I never seen this much of weirdo mail! So I thought I'll share it with you.. Maybe you'd think it's not weird after all -who knows-

Subject:
Message: A man search from veracious by grandfather his and if we desired this **********@hotmail.com

Subject: you what?
Message: hi! a message to know other people among which you get friends from different background. any way you are beautiful (L)

Subject: hi
Message: hello lady how are you i hope evry thing good with you ...i like ur profile i wish to be friends ...for now take care have a nice day bless you ...dan

Subject: world
Message: Water’s smile…sea breeze…wave’s beat…butterfly’s heartbeat…you are the world…when dreaming …

kisses from Italy Francesco

Subject: hi
Message: hi sweety I,m ahmad from ( K . S . A ).
hi I need your tender hand to guide me to you.
I will be happy if you send to my e-mail at (*****@hotmail.com).

Subject: hii
Message: how r u , i'm egyption live in Riyadh i really like to be your friend, i'm cute handsomei will show you my pic because i couldnt upload it here, i'm looking for nice cute friendsi hope you add me in msn ************@hotmail.comC U soon

Subject: Hi
Message: hello I’m Hamza I live in Turkey in capitial city in Ankara I speak english but a little bitİf you want to write or speak every subjejct (on MSN ****@hotmail.com *****@yahoo.com.tr ) please write me I’m ready I have got a web cam

Subject:
Message: Iam mohamed from egypt and I`m student in faculty of law in Cairo universy and websites Designer and I want to travil to Europa in coming soon maybe after one year when i has been finshed my study ,my favourite things are (soccer and eating chocolate )I hope we will becomes friends cause i like you.I forget to tell you thing I`m single.
****@hotmail.com ****@yahoo.com

Subject:
Message: do you want to see my cock
add memailto:me***@hotmail.com
kiss

Subject:
Message: hiiii sexy gairl i want u email to chat u

Subject:
Message: Simpl music can make u sing...Simple hug can make u feel brttre...Simple things can make u happy...Hope that my simple ""msg"" can make u smile {****@HOTMAIL.COM}WAIT U and want to know u somethingA friend is like a pillow u can hug it when u are in trouble...you can cry on it when u are in pain...and embrace it when u are happy ...ALWAYS REMEMBER I CAN BE YOUR PILLOW !!!

Subject: Hello
Message: well, hope that you are going fine... that's my first time getting into that web.... wish to get some news from you to know you better if u r interested.... sure, you are maybe asked about my id.... i'm omar, a lebanese guy living in ksa. my email is ******@hotmail.comwish to hear soon from you
ciao

Subject: MY WISH IS TO BE NEAR YOU REALLY
Message: HI DARLING.
I am a student of politics and international relations, my mama was from from Brazil and my fother from Angola and I live in Prague, Czech republic.I am looking foreward to read some sweet lines from you, any way you are very interesting MADONNA MIA, I mean HOW NICE TO BE NEAR YOU, CAN YOU EMAGINE THAT? FANTASTIC.

Subject: hey
Message: Are you available?

Subject:
Message: Hiya
I am Male 30 year old live in Riyadh but from Lonodn. I have been in Riyadh for 8 months and work as an Accountant. I come to London fairly regularly
I am 6ft tall brown eyes mediium build and tanned and single interested in being mates then why not email me on ******@yahoo.com.
My msn id is *******@hotmail.com
If you want then you may also text me on +966 5********
My name is Kam by the way.
hope to hear from you soon.

Subject:

Message: hi i'm a cool sexy egyptian guy , love singing , playing guitar & having sex with cute girls like u (************@hotmail.com)(***********@yahoo.com)

Subject: hi

Message: HI THERE ,THIS IS IBRAHEEM FROM RIYADH LOOKING FOR A GIRL THAT CAN SURE SHE SO STRONG TO DEAL WITH ME COZ IAM THE MOSTLY BIGGEST MAN IN THIS WORLD IAM REALLY INTERSTED ON U.IF U SEE THE U HAV THE POWER TO FACE ME JUST CALL ME AT 05********* OR ADD ME IN UR MESSENGER ************@YAHOO.COM OR************@HOTMAIL.COMBEST REGARDS

Subject: hiiiiiiiiiii

Message: hiiiiiiiiiiiii iam mohamed fawky iam from egypt i20 old year plz i want ur mails becos i want chat with u if ok this is my mails_________________ ************@yahoo.com ____________ *****fofa****@hotmail.combay.

Subject: Hello Beautiful,

Message: Hi there,
You are so gorgeous! You really look good that you should be an actress or model. You got the look, I should know cos I am in this line!
Wanna be your friend. OK? I am in my 30s and work as a film Director and TV Producer with my own film company and I am currently producing 3 shows in production at the moment. I love fine wine and dining and am a hopeless romantic for beaches, sea and sand and surf. I am seeking a romantic woman who likes to be loved pampered and appreciated.
Tell me about you
rich and lonely man
Email me:******@yahoo.com
You really are growing into a very beautiful young woman!

Tomorrow, back to work, I am asking for a vacation inshallah, I will have it like those people who had the makrama, even if it was from my own!!!

Surprise.. Surprise..

2006-09-28T22:40:00.000+04:00

Woke up today with a headache, and seems nobody's there to have fa6oor with but my sisters.. -I'm not complaining- We had a party for my sis yesterday, she's a 21 year old now.. I kinda screwed up her head a lot, as I had to make it a real surprise, I told her we're going to meet some friends and I was in my abaya =D and she bought it! While her friends were gathering up in our basement!! Making balloons and getting ready.. I called her @10 pm told her that I am in the car waiting and she should go get the Karaoke from the basement and come; she screamed at me; "It's not that we're ONLY late, kaman; KARAOKE IN RAMDAN!!" I was like "just bring it!!" And she came down the basement and we were all there and whoa she didn't see that one coming! I am satisfied =D

See, the thing with surprise parties is; that the person you're supposed to be surprising, knows it and expects it most of the time, sometimes is nice and acts surprised and all.. But in her case we already had a family party on Sunday -the actual day of her birthday- So, she thought in the gathering we'll have cake and she's gonna get gifts and that's it.

I, for one, had the worst surprises, I was never surprised! Till last year.. When I turned 21, and I didn't make a big deal out of it, I was gonna start a new job in a week, and was saying good-bye to the lazy simple life. I got a couple of calls and sms's that day, was lazily watched TV.. When mama came with a cake and all the family waraha singing.. I was happy =)

This year, mama missed my birthday, she and dad were in UK for a week, and supposed to come back ON my birthday, but they couldn't get a flight, so they came on Thursday, when my friends were having a "surprise" party at home for me, which I guessed all along, even the activities I guessed, I freaked myself. When mom came, she brought me a Gucci watch that I've wanted!! It was the best birthday, despite me not being surprised.

Newsflash: Taqo's blog is back and kickin!! ;)

For more of my pictures, check my flickr page, yeah, yeah.. I finally got one!

Ramadan Kareem

2006-09-24T07:31:00.000+04:00

So, second day of Ramadan already!! Wow. I slept yesterday at 9 PM. Woke up a while ago before fajr, I'm not used to this yet I guess.. I watched Tash el a9le, it was funny!! I don't think everyone agrees with me though! heh..

I'm checking my mail EVERYDAY and I think American Eagle just cancelled my order! They got this stupid new laws in online purchasing, where they added a couple more stuff to guarantee the stupid people don't get robbed! Well, we shouldn't limit ourselves 3ashan a couple of careless online shoppers!! Mn jd matching addresses for the Credit Card holder and the shipping address!! And then that other code they added CVV whatever! I really don't enjoy online shopping as much as I did a while before!

So, now it's 6.30 AM got work in 3 hrs, and nothing to do.. I been hooked on LOST, and been liking Saieed, I thought it was just a crush, but heck, it's episode 26 and I still dig the guy! He's handsome, sweet and strong.. What more does a girl want *dreamyeyes* lol, but hey, he don't look Iraqi to me..

Let me post this, and I'll go watch the rest of it..

Ciao

Need a Slogan?! How About I Want Fo0f ;)

2006-09-18T19:28:00.000+04:00

Hello bloggers..

Today was not a good day for me, waking up @ 6AM and arriving work @ 8AM. Being blamed by my boss for something someone else did, and I can't point that out cuz I'd be childish and not nice to that person, and being picked on by the Relationship Managers to do thier jobs, I plugged my headphones and ignored everything in the end!! Raises are supposed to be coming and I should put the workoholic act that everyone is putting, but I'm not in the mood at all..

So, I go home to check my personal e-mail hoping to get a message from American Eagle that my shipment is shipped, and while I am still checking my fifty-something mailbox I bump into this

You all oughtta try it. You put a word and it makes a slogan out of it!! Check these out:

Can You Tell Nouf From Butter?
Yo Quiero Fo0f.

Woohoo, what does that mean =P it means I WANT FOOF!! Lol, might as well print it on a Tee!

P.S. UmEeE:

It's not an achievement 2 make 100 FRiENDS in a Year, but an achievement is 2 make a FRiEND for 100 Years, 'N' I know I've made ONE, that's . . . YOU !!~I wanted to sms you but you know I can't ='(

I wish U a happy birthday and may you get real big goals to achieve for next year, and always know I'll be there for you if you needed any help to achieve them!!

Check out the koooolest B Day Cake, for my somewhat in-a-workaholic-phase friend =P: (That's how she REALLY looks!!)

Ren Crow's birthday is today!! Happy birthday mesio 23 years!! =D

I g2g see the rest of LOST..

Tom is NOT my friend.

2006-09-15T22:11:00.001+04:00

Listening to: My Answer is You, Brian Littrell

Ghost:

To get out of somewhere fast, used as "got ghost"
Damn, when those shortys showed up we got ghost real fast dawg

Is to leave or exit....you know like "I' m gonna boogie...or I'm a dip out....or lets jet...or I' m Swayze (See Ghost)..Or I'm a bounce.

Tom, is a ghost.

~I never had imaginary friends, but I had little voices talking to me inside my head, still do, they're not as fun or as many as they used to be.

~Tried watching Lost and it didn't work! I am watching DHW season 2 instead!! Hmmph

~Back to work tomorrow, I wish Sam gets the job and joins me soon!

What Makes You an Ouzzi This Time Around

2006-09-10T23:00:00.000+04:00

Listeneing to: Ydo2 el bab, Amr Diab

Alright, you need to know that the essential thing is to speak English, and if you can read my blog then ok go on, other than English, I think only the Chinese and South Korean can live there as the massive Chinese and South Korean population!

1- Look like them: Well, as per statistics, Australia is the second most diverse country in the world, number one is of course the United States of America *rollingeyes*. I think just add a couple of Latinos and a couple of African American and it’s number one. You’ll fit there wherever you’re originally from.

2- Dress like them: You gotta have 3 noticeable piercings at least, Skinny pants, a dotted red dress/shirt and a stripped yellow cropped jacket, a mini skirt over the skinny pants, it’s all about colors and mismatching!

3- Talk like them: This is quite fun, it reminded me of my summer school days in London when I used to mock the English accent. `

*Here, in the morning "G’Day!".

*Start every sentence with "I reckon".

*Whenever someone says something that requires no response, just say "No worries".

*Replace every "Yes" or "Yeah" with a "Yeey".

*End every sentence with "Mate" or "Love".

*Whenever someone says "thank you" you ALWAYS reply with "No worries".

*Refer to the bathroom as the "Loo" !!

*Try to add a weird English accent to anything you say!Keep on saying "No worries" for no reason whatsoever!!

4- Act like them: Just always try to be funny, be nosey in everyone’s business and when you see someone you THINK you know you scream out and get all high in a crazy way but still be polite and mannered, and you’ll hit Ouzzi.

5- Be one: They just like to be weird, so if you are one, you gotta be a Goth, a Punk, a Transsexual, or just run around cross-dressing in public.

**Note to readers; please feel free to add anything to the list, as per statistics ALSO; Ouzzi land is the number one immigrant destination and we can provide the interested people some help here ;).

~Lol. To sum it up; I lubbed Ouzzi

TiG TaG.. I should be out shopping for my sis b-day gift! Ideas anyone??

2006-09-07T11:33:00.000+04:00

I've been tagged a long time ago by Black Orchid
-Sorry, I know this is late-

I have to write 20 facts about myself..

1. I like having long nails, but I can't get them as my nails reach a certin length then commit suicide.
2. I am quite girlish AND a tomboy all in the same time.
3. I love music, if I wasn't the Saudi Fo0f that I am I would so be a singer.
4. I am long-sighted and my eye doctor told me surgery to get my sight has a 10% sucess chance only!
5. My sisters B day is coming up and I got no Idea what to get her. Update; maybe a TV!
6. I got one cousin who's my age from moms side, and we're not friends!!
7. I got a million cousins my age from dad's side, and, again, I'm not close with any.
8. Only one of my friends didn't graduate yet, she's done next year.
9. All my friends work, or want to work.
10. I want to buy my own car, with my own money.
11. I want to get my parents something big, but I think I can't do that now! =(
12. I still want to meet A.J. Mclean and got a huge crush on him!
13. I got 2 laptops (Compaq an Toshiba) and I love them both so very much.
14. My eyes hurt so much lately, maybe they miss the glasses.
15. I found blogging way more interesting than what I thought.
16. Some people are just too shallow.
17. Being Saudi is a good thing, being a muslim is even a better thing, and not missing your prayers makes you a heck of a person!!
18. Yes, I do pray, you crazy people!!! I wouldn't be muslim if I didn't!! and I'd love to pass handouts about Islam, but I don't want to be sent off to some prison.
19. I am a fast typer. Faster in Arabic than English, cuz I don't have Arabic letters on both my laptops so I know all the letters by heart.
20. I love to blog.. And to read peoples blogs.. But I don't love all the bloggrs.

on a slighter note, I stole this off 5aleejee Twixes blog;

You Are Las Vegas

Wild and uninhibited, you enjoy all of life's vices.
You're a total hedonist, especially with sex, gambling, and drinking.
You shine brightly every night, but you do the ultimate walk of shame each morning.

Famous Las Vegas residents: Wayne Newton, Howard Hughes, Penn & Teller, Siegfried & Roy

What American City Are You?

*raisingoneeyebrow* what the?? I am Las Vegas?? Mabe -I don't wana!-!! =S

-This has gone way too far!!

-Note the subject of this post, I'd appreaciate some thoughts..

~Fo0f, over and out.

Irony is Mostly Sad..

2006-09-01T21:50:00.000+04:00

Two years ago, I started noticing one of my close relatives had too much appointments and check ups, and I always thought she's just taking care of herself too much; after all she is a doctor!

Well, last summer, she just collapsed; she spit blood, and lost a lot of weight in such a short period! She went to the ER right away that day. I knew something weird was going on, and one of her daughters kept telling us about something she found in the maid's room, which looked like some kinda charm! Someone took it to a shaikh that day. And we never heard the end of that story, we were just terrified.

Two days later, they say they found a tumour in her tummy. And it was the first time she knew about it, turns out she had been checking what's wrong all this time and no one knew!! She had about three surgeries that summer to remove it, and a lot more surgeries to clean what they made!! And told her that by God's well she's gonna be OK, but, had to take chemo!!

She knew what Chemo did to people, and she figured a 5% chance the tumour is coming back is not worth the Chemo. She rested at home at last. In two months she reported back to the hospital where she worked, and we saw her again in gatherings, she was as good as she always was. I always loved her sense of humor. She was always fun to be with.

This summer, we been away, mom tried calling her a couple of times, and she never answered. Mom was always wondering why. Last day, we called one of her daughters, and she told us she's back in hospital, and the tumour is back. Not so much info. But that was enough to make us all feel guilty and sad..

I went to see her the next day I was in Riyo, that's why I couldn't make it to the bloggerts meet-up, and she was so pale, and looked sad. Even her voice wasn't clear!! She didn't move easily cuz of the tumour's big size!! Heck, she even had problems breathing!! And her 25 year old engineer son greets us telling that she's a goner!!! He made us all cry!!! I can't believe that guy!!! (I think he didn't really know what was wrong with his mom) Then, her husband jocks in front of her about a girl flirting with him. THE DAY BEFORE HER SURGERY!!! Talk about caring!!!

She had surgery, removing her Uterus, they say it went well, and I sure hope she's better. No visits are allowed yet, but I really want to see her and hug her, and wish her health! But I don't want to break down crying, she needs everyone to be strong for her!! And it is really hard! She's too young for this!! I know God is testing her faith. But I can't help but think it's unfair, for her, and her 4 year old son ='(

Aunt Najla, this entry is dedicated to you! I wish I can do more, I love you, and I pry for you non stop.

Home, Sweet Home.

2006-08-28T22:38:00.000+04:00

Listening to: Whatcha Lookin At, Whitney Houston

I recently watched a movie about some Lebanese hijackers who took a plane and threatened to kill everyone as a rebel act to the Israelis invading Lebanon, all I can say about the movie is it was cruel, the week before, the same channel of Fox network had a documentary about Palestine and surprisingly all the facts were bull. I just can't say I trust TV no more!! And I loved TV!!!

OK, Then came the 9/11 movie -I don't recall it's name, but I'm sure you know what I'm talking about- which I had no interest to watch, mom and dad did though, and told me it was cruel too. Two days later I go and watch Snakes on a Plane, not a smart move; this movie was good but freaky! And all I been thinking while I was on my transit trips was an anaconda falling down somewhere.

LOL, the best thing about the movie though was it made me like the flight attendants and respect them, and that a male flight attendant is cool =P. Yeah, well, they were extremely nice to us on our way back home, so there, I just love people who smile when they talk to you.
I'm home, safe and sound, THIS PLACE IS HOT!! And my cell took two hours to pick STC's signal - I can not really say that I blame it =S-I unpacked, now I need to sleep..

-Note to all Riyo bloggerets: I AM BACK, INCLUDE ME WHEN YOU HAVE A FREGGIN' MEET-UP, DAMN IT!!! OK ;) hehNighty night!

Between Me and the Ocean..

2006-08-20T17:35:00.000+04:00

It's 11:30 PM. I am at the beach listening to Dido's "Here With Me" on my Nokia MP3 Player since my Ipod mini's battery died. With all the weekend hustle behind me on Cavill Avenue, I can't help but think about you. Are you at the beach too? Was our friendship really meaningless, when I thought it was so real. When I remember your email last week saying you remembered me, I can't help but quote when you said "What do you want from me!!". I have been lied to and cheated on and stabbed by all sorta people, and I was OK, but this time, I doubt if I'll ever trust a friend again.

Euphoria once wrote a post about forgiveness, when I read the comments, I decided not to comment my self, as I thought it would be weird to say "I forgive but never foget", and sadly, I think things will never be the same again. I wipe my tears, pick up my gold and black hand bag, and decide to head home.I know I said I will stop bloggin for a while, but I really think I am posting this, after all it's MY blog.

On a further note, I thank my sisters and friends Maha, Farah and Bassem for their concerns. Guys I know you're all peaceful, 7ata farah, I remember you told me before going to the states you might delete ur blog, its not that, it's just the pressure to blog now! No one gets it's an online JOURNAL! Not a newspaper column! And I just was hurt when I wrote that, and I wanted to do something about it but couldn't and that hurt me more!!

~For whoever is bored, add this guy to your IM smarterchild@hotmail.com he just annoys me.

-5 more days to Riyo and work! -Someone is not so into that mood, might as well take a longer vacation-. We'll see about that. For now, laters.

Rawthah and 6arrad (Take one)

2006-08-15T16:32:00.000+04:00

Listening to: My Boo, Usher and Alicia Keys

Surfers Paradise, Gold Coast, Brisbane, Australia, UAE! Yes, United Arab Emirates is here, I went to Dubai in spring break and I didn't see this much UAEans.. Ash told me this is 5aleje bimbo paradise, but it's more like UAE bimbo paradise, and it's more bimbo dudes than dudets =\

I'm not complaining, seeing people of both genders who got real long silky hair.. No sense of style whatsoever, Who walk and spill money and never pick it up, their chicks make fun of them in public and then again they never talk back.

Until today, a mistake was made and one did say something to a Bahrini guy who took his built -YES, I SAID BUILT- and whooped her with it! It was a crazy scene, and unlike my beautiful country the cops were there in a minute and filled up Cavill Street. I don't know all the facts, and I couldn't see with all the people calling their friends and cousins to come and "check it out". But I know this; we are barbarians!! At least our men are =P

**Update; Maha says she never met a Rawathah, nor a 6arad in her 5 years in UAE so =\

To Remind me of Shallower Times..

2006-08-06T21:30:00.000+04:00

Listening to: Changes by Tupac

"May your trails be crooked, winding, lonesome, dangerous, leading to the most amazing view. May your mountains rise into and above the clouds." -Edward Abbey

"Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving." -Albert Einstein

"Faces come out of the rain.. when you're strange. Am I strange? Possibly. Probably. But maybe I'm not really any stranger than anyone else. Maybe I'm just more aware of my own strangeness." -Anonymous

"Three Things in human life are important, the first is to be kind. The second is to be kind. And the third is to be kind." -Henry James

"..most of us are still only raging from the inside." -Monique Webber

"Oh, I'm sorry, I think you're mistaking me for someone who actually gives a shit." -Fo0f

Aussi Land

2006-08-05T11:50:00.000+04:00

Listening to: Away from the Sun, Three Doors Down

This is a real long post. I havent posted in ages so I earned it, and you guys will miss me again, I just know it =p

Wohooo!! I arrived at Aussie land at last!! The land of the friendliest people, or so they say.. Lol, and they got my lil' sister strip for them to inspect! She thought they were the meanest, and my lil' bro's antique pistols he bought from KL were taken by the "quarantine" people at customs where they accused him of ILLEGALY brining weapons, oh, thank you for not jailing my 13 year old bro!!

Airport was hell as you can see.. But after 20 hrs of travel and airports, anything would have been hell to us. Thank God we at last arraived safe and sound in one of the most beutiful cities I've seen, and when I say beutifull I mean it's ALL beutifull, not the kind of city that has some good looking hang out spots.. This is a real good place to live in, no wonder it's the number one country in number of immagrenats. What else, Blonds, Casinos, Rich Japanese Boarding schools, High rents, Chinese population and hot people! I swear, almost everybody looks good here. ALMOST.

Sydney was really nice, and then, Melbourne was even Better.. Gold Coast has to rock now or we'll really be dissapointed.

-My sis and bro and me decided to work here for 5 years and become millioners!! I mean that 7-eleven guy gets SAR 27K per month!!!

-I think I saw Prince Harry today at the Crown Casino! I have to google where's he at at the mo'.
Well..

-I'm actually reading books again!! I just might join the bookclub!

I'll just be clear on one point I made in my last post, I WAS RIGHT =D the Malaysian people WERE a combanation of South Easteren Asians who went there to mine for minerals.

Me posting anytime soon is rather "dodgy" so, later!